clothes out at the door, and got into bed. There he fell a thinking.
Instead of telling what he thought, however, I will now turn to what my
reader may be, and I have been, thinking about his act of rescue.
What made him, who has been shown all but incapable of originating a
single action, thus at the one right moment do the one right thing?
Here arises another question: Does a man _always_ originate his own
actions? Is it not possible, to say the least of it, that, just to give
him a taste of what well-doing means, some moment, when selfishness is
sick and faint, may be chosen by the power in whom we live and move
and have our being to inspire the man with a true impulse? We must
think what an unspeakable comfort it must have been to Thomas, in these
moments of hopeless degradation of which he felt all the bitterness,
suddenly to find around him, as the result of a noble deed into which
he had been unaccountably driven, a sympathetic, yes, admiring public.
No matter that they were not of his class, nor yet that Thomas was not
the man to do the human brotherhood justice; he could not help feeling
the present power of humanity, the healing medicine of approbation, in
the faces of the _common_ people who had witnessed and applauded his
deed. I say _medicine_ of approbation; for what would have been to him
in ordinary, a poison, was now a medicine. There was no fear of his
thinking himself too much of a hero at present.
It may be objected that the deed originated only in a carelessness
of life resulting from self-contempt. I answer, that no doubt that
had its share in making the deed possible, because it removed for the
time all that was adverse to such a deed; but self-despite, however
true and well-grounded, cannot inspirit to true and noble action. I
think it was the divine, the real self, aroused at the moment by the
breath of that wind which bloweth where it listeth, that sprung thus
into life and deed, shadowing, I say _shadowing_ only, that wonderful
saying of our Lord that he that loseth his life shall find it. It had
come--been given to him--that a touch of light might streak the dark
cloud of his fate, that he might not despise himself utterly, and act
as unredeemable--kill himself or plunge into wickedness to drown his
conscience. It was absolutely necessary that he should be brought to
want; but here was just one little opening--not out of want, but into
the light of a higher region altogether, the region of well-being--by
which a glimmer of the strength of light could enter the chaos of his
being. Any good deed partakes of the life whence it comes, and is a
good to him who has done it. And this act might be a beginning.
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