for she found that when she was most humble then she could best pray
for her son. Not that had her assurance rested in the love of God it
would ever have quenched her prayer; but her assurance had been taught
to rest upon her consciousness of faith, which, unrealized, tended to
madness--realized, to spiritual pride. She lay thus praying for him,
and dreaming about him, and hoping that he would return before she
died, when she would receive him as son had never before been welcomed
to his mother's bosom.
But Mr. Worboise's dry, sand-locked bay was open to the irruption of no
such waters from the great deep of the eternal love. Narrow and poor
as it was, Mrs. Worboise's religion had yet been as a little wedge to
keep her door open to better things, when they should arrive and claim
an entrance, as they had now done. But her husband's heart was full
of money and the love of it. How to get money, how not to spend it,
how to make it grow--these were the chief cares that filled his heart.
His was not the natural anxiety the objects of which, though not the
anxiety, were justified by the Lord when he said, "Your Father knoweth
that ye have need of these things." It was not what he needed that
filled his mind with care, but what he did not need, and never would
need; nay, what other people needed, and what was not his to take--not
his in God's sight, whatever the law might say. And to God's decision
everything must come at last, for that is the only human verdict of
things, the only verdict which at last will satisfy the whole jury of
humanity. But I am wrong; this was not all that filled his heart. One
demon generally opens the door to another--they are not jealous of
exclusive possession of the human thrall. The heart occupied by the
love of money will be only too ready to fall a prey to other evils; for
selfishness soon branches out in hatred and injustice. The continued
absence of his son, which he attributed still to the Boxalls, irritated
more than alarmed him; but if sometimes a natural feeling of dismay
broke in upon him, it only roused yet more the worst feelings of his
heart against Lucy and her grandmother. Every day to which Thomas's
absence extended itself, his indignation sank deeper rather than rose
higher. Every day he vowed that, if favored by fortune, he would make
them feel in bitterness how deeply they had injured him. To the same
account he entered all the annoyance given him by the well-meaning
Mr. Sargent, who had only as yet succeeded in irritating him without
gaining the least advantage over him. His every effort in resistance
of probate failed. The decision of the court was that Mr. Boxall,
a strong, healthy, well-seasoned, middle-aged man, was far more
likely to have outlived all his daughters, than any one of them have
outlived him; therefore Mr. Worboise obtained probate and entered into
possession.
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