"Oh, and I'd really rather you didn't say my nature was beautiful,"
Pauline protested. "Truthfully, Monica, darling, it's a very ugly nature
indeed, and I'm afraid it's getting uglier every day."
Her sister's cloistral smile flickered upon the scene like the wan
February sunlight.
"I do hope Guy really appreciates you," was what she said.
"See how the sparrows have pulled the crocuses into ribbons," Pauline
exclaimed. And so that Monica could not talk to her any more, she hailed
her father, who was wandering along toward the house on the other side
of the lawn. When he sauntered across to them she pointed out the
destructiveness of the sparrows.
"Ah, well, my dear," he chuckled, "most florists are worse."
"Perhaps _I'm_ a florist," Monica whispered, "and Guy may be only a
mischievous sparrow."
Pauline smiled at Monica and took her arm gratefully and affectionately.
"We shall have all the daffs gone before we know where we are," said the
Rector. "Maximus is out under the oaks. And King Alfred is just going to
turn down his buds."
"Dear King Alfred," said Pauline. "How glad I shall be to say
good-morning to him again."
Yes, all the daffodils would soon be here and then gone; and beyond this
austere afternoon already she could fancy a smell of March winds.
After Monica's question it was no longer possible for Pauline when she
was alone to avoid facing the problem of Guy's attitude toward religion.
The repression of her anxiety on this point had only increased the force
of it when it was set free like this to compete with and in fact
overshadow all other cares. Looking back to her earliest thoughts of the
world as it would one day affect herself, she remembered how, if she had
ever imagined someone in love with her, she had always created a figure
whose faith would be an eternal and joyful contemplation. She had never
invented for herself a marriage with someone merely good-looking or
rich or endowed with any of the romantic attributes that young girls
were supposed to award their ideals, as her cousins would say, of men.
When Guy entered her life, the only gift he brought her for which she
was at all prepared was the conviction of his faith. This indeed was his
spiritual and mental reality for her: the rest of him was a figment, a
dream that might pass suddenly away. The visit of his father had given
her a more clearly defined assurance of his existence on earth, but his
faith had been the heart of the immortal substance of her love for Guy.
The endlessness of their union was always present in her thoughts, the
ultimate consolation of whatever delays they might be called upon to
endure. Very often, even at the beginning of the engagement, Guy had
frightened her sometimes by his indifference to immortality, sometimes
by his harping upon the swift flight of youth, sometimes by his manifest
indulgence of her creed. All these doubts, however, of his sympathy were
allayed by his apparently deliberate pleasure in worship. She was angry
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