_I agree with some of what you say, but I disagree with a good deal
more, and I am entirely opposed to your method of procedure, which
is to put it very mildly rather casual. Your degree was not so good
as it ought to have been, but I did not reproach you, because in
the Consular Service you had chosen a career which did not call
specially for a first. At the same time you could, if you had
worked, have got a first quite easily. Your six months with the
Macedonian Relief people seems to have knocked all your consular
ambitions on the head rather too easily, I confess, to make me feel
very happy about your future. And now without consulting me you
take a house in the country for the purpose of writing poetry! You
imply in answer to my remonstrances that I am unable to appreciate
the 'necessity' for your step. That may be, but I cannot help
asking where you would be now if I at your age, instead of helping
my father with his school, had gone off to Oxfordshire to write
poetry. Perhaps I had ambitions to make a name for myself with the
pen. If I had, I quenched them in order to devote myself to what I
considered my duty. I do not reproach you for refusing to carry on
the school at Fox Hall. Your dear mother's last request was that I
should not urge you to be a schoolmaster, unless you were drawn to
the vocation. Her wishes I have respected, and I repeat that I am
not hurt at your refusal. At the same time I cannot encourage what
can only be described as this whim of yours to bury yourself in a
remote village where, having saddled yourself with the
responsibilities of a house, you announce your intention of living
by poetry! I am the last person to underestimate the value of
poetry, but as a livelihood it seems to me as little to be relied
upon as the weather. However, you are of age. You have £150 a year
of your own. You are with the exercise of the strictest economy
independent. And this brings me to the point of your last letter
in which you ask me to supplement your own income with an allowance
£150 a year from me. This inclination to depend upon your father is
not what I conceive to be the artist's spirit of independence. This
over-drawing upon your achievement fills me with dismay for the
future. However, since I do not wish you to begin hampered by debt
and as you assure me that you have spent all your own money on this
idiotic house, I will give you £150, to be paid in quarterly
instalments of £37 10s. as from the 21st of this month for one
year. Furthermore, at the end of next year if you find that poetry
is less profitable than even you expect, I will offer you a place
at Fox Hall, thereby securing for you the certainty of a life
moderately free from financial worries. After all, even a
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