"Oh, he'll never discover me," said Margaret. "That's what's so dull."
"Aren't you a little unreasonable?" Guy asked.
"Of course I am. Now don't let's talk about me any more: I'm really not
worth discussing--only just because my family is so exquisite and
because I adore them, I never talk about Richard to them. Here's the old
woman's cottage. I shan't be more than a few minutes."
Guy felt honoured by Margaret's confidence, but his heart was so full
of Pauline that he transferred all the substance of what she had been
saying to suit his own case. Would Pauline never know if she were in
love? Would he be doomed to the position of Richard? Or worse, would
Pauline fly from his love in terror of anything so disturbing to the
perfection of her life at present? On the whole he was inclined to think
that this was exactly what she would do; and he felt he would never have
the courage to startle her with the question. When he thought of the
girls to whom in the past of long vacations he had made protestations of
devotion that were light as the thistledown in the summery meadows where
they were uttered, it was incredible that the asking of Pauline should
speed his heart like this. With other girls he had always imagined them
slightly in love with him, but for Pauline to be in love with him seemed
hopeless, though he qualified his humility by assuring himself that she
could be in love with nobody. Did Margaret really have a suspicion that
he was in love with Pauline? If she had, why had she not drawn his
confidence before she gave her own? She came out from the cottage as he
propounded this, and he told her, when their faces were set towards
Wychford and a chilly wind that was rising, how he had been thinking
about her confidence all the while she was in the cottage. Moreover, he
was under the impression this was the truth.
"But don't think about me any more," she commanded.
"Never?"
"Not until I speak first. Isn't it cold? You must have been frozen
waiting for me."
They hurried along talking mostly, though how the topic arose Guy never
knew, about whether Alice in Wonderland were better than Alice Through
the Looking-glass or not. The quotations that went to sustain the
argument were so many that they arrived back very quickly, it seemed, at
the stile leading into the snowy field.
"Will you go home the same way?" Guy suggested. "Look, nobody has spoilt
our tracks. They're jollier than ever, and do you see those rooks
farther down the field? It will snow again this afternoon and our
footprints will vanish."
By the time they reached the Abbey wood Guy had made up his mind that as
they walked up through the shrubbery, unless people were listening
there, he would tell Margaret how deeply he was in love with Pauline.
The resolution taken, his throat seemed to close up with nervousness,
and vaulting over the fence he tripped and fell in a snow drift.
"Why this violent activity all of a sudden?" Margaret asked.
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