George accepted the hint. He went upstairs, and changed into black
serge: borrowed a few sovereigns from his landlord: ate his lunch of
bread and milk; and took the L. and N.W. Rail to Highbury. Walking away
from the station amid the blatant and vivacious inurbanity of Islington
Upper Street, he kept his mental processes inactive--the higher mental
processes of induction and deduction, the faculties of criticism and
judgment. His method was Aristotelean, in that he drew his universals
from a consideration of numerous particulars. He had plenty of material
for thought; and he stored it till the time for thinking came. Now,
he was out of doors for the sake of physical exercise. Also, he was
getting the morning's events into perspective. At present his mind
resembled warm wax on a tablet, wherein externals inscribed but
transient impressions--an obese magenta Jewess with new boots which
had a white line round their idiotic high heels--a baby with neglected
nostrils festooned over the side of a mail-cart--a neat boy's leg,
long and singularly well-turned, extended in the act of mounting a
bicycle--an Anglican sister-of-mercy displaying side-spring prunellos
and one eye in a haberdasher's violent window--a venerable shy drudge
of a piano-tuner whose left arm was dragged down by the weight of the
unmistakable little bag of tools--the weary anxious excruciating asking
look in the eyes of all. He made his way south-westward, walking till
he was tired for an hour and a half.
Anon, he was lying face downward in the calidarium of the bath, a slim
white form, evenly muscular, boyishly fine and smooth. His forehead
rested on his crossed arms, veiling his eyes. He came here, because
here he was unknown: the place, with its attendants and frequenters,
was quite strange to him: he would not be bored by the banalities of
familiar tractators; and an encounter with any of his acquaintance
was out of the question. From time to time he refreshed himself in
the shower: but, while his procumbent body was at rest in the hot
oxygenated air, he let his mind work easily and quickly. After two
hours, he concluded his bath with a long cold plunge; and retired
rosily tingling to the unctuarium to smoke. Here he made the following
entries in his pocket-book:
"Have I been fair to them? Yes: but unmerciful. N.B. _For an act to be
really good and meritorious, it must be performed noluntarily and with
self-compulsion._
What have I gained? A verbal promise of priesthood, and a verbal
promise of five thousand pounds. M-ym-ym-ym-ym-ym-ym.
What has he gained? If he's honest, the evacuation of a purulent
abscess, the allegiance of a man who wants to be faithful, and
perhaps the merit of saving a soul. N.B. _There was unwillingness and
self-compulsion in him._
Why was he so timid?
A great part of what I said was gratuitously exasperating. Why did he
stand it?
What does he know that I don't know?
What do I know that he doesn't know?
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