"Yes, because you are blond, and so tall and strong, and a prisoner; so
Hermine has taken it into her head that you must be able to conquer
lions. Whether she is in earnest or in jest, I doubt whether she knows
herself. But I wanted to thank you for joining us in the garden to-day.
It was kind of you; for I could see that you were not at ease in the
company."
"And you, yourself?"
"I must not ask the question. They are our relations."
"Of course that excuses everything."
I said this not without some bitterness, with a reference to her
friendship to Arthur; but I felt ashamed of myself when she raised her
sweet, gentle eyes to my face and innocently asked:
"What do you mean?"
Happily I was spared the necessity of an answer, for Doctor Snellius
came up at the moment, calling "Fräulein Paula! Fräulein Paula!" while
he was yet at a distance.
"I must go in," said Paula; "there are many things to see to; and I beg
you do not look so angry. You have been of late not so friendly as
usual; are you displeased with me?"
I had not the courage to answer "Yes!" when I looked into the earnest
fade that was lifted to mine.
"Who could be that?" I said. "You are a thousand times better than all
of us."
"That she is, God bless her!" said Doctor Snellius, who had caught the
last words.
He looked after her as she hastened away, and a deep and sorrowful
shade passed over his grotesque face. Then with both hands he draped
his hat over his bald skull down to his very ears, and said in a tone
of irritation:
"The devil take it! She is far too good; she is so good that she can
only meet with trouble. The time is past--if; there ever was such a
time--when all things worked together for good to the good man. One
must be bad--thoroughly bad; one must flatter, lie, cheat, trip up his
neighbor, regard the whole world as his private inheritance which by
neglect has fallen into alien hands, and which is to be won back again.
But to do this one must be brought up to it, and how are we brought up?
As if life were one of Gessner's idylls. Modesty, love of our
neighbors, love of truth! Let any one try it with this outfit! Is the
commerzienrath modest? Does he love his neighbor? Does he love the
truth? Not one whit And the man is a millionaire, and his neighbors
pull off caps when they meet him, and fame proclaims him one of the
noblest of human-kind, because from time to time he tosses a _thaler_
that will not go into his crammed purse, into a poor man's hat. But you
will say he has his punishment in his own breast. Much of it! He
considers himself a thoroughly good man, a splendid fellow, full of
humor, and when at night he lies down in his bed to snore his eight
hours, he says, 'This you have honestly earned.' Away with your
starving, hectic honesty!"
"I did not say a word in its favor, doctor."
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