It was on Monday, I remember, when I had to begin that labor. I went up
the stream, which was salt at the seaside; I took leather bags, and
drawing water carried it and poured it into a stone cistern. Tartar
women, who went to the stream to wash clothes, set dogs at me. In the
evening I did not go to the village as formerly, but lay down to sleep
among camels. Because I was wearied, God sent me sleep right away; later
I woke on a sudden, and saw some slender figure coming toward me in the
moonlight. I made the sign of the cross, thinking it a ghost; but it was
Illa, who brought a dish of water, and olive oil. Then, washing my feet
and anointing them, she sat near by on the straw, and looked as before
at me, in silence, while great silver drops were flowing from her
eyelids.
"Illa," asked I, "why hast thou come here?"
She whispered quietly, showing her moist lids in the moonlight,--
"Dear one, why hast thou despised me?"
From weeping she could say no more. The heart in me was moved toward
that maiden, and I wanted to gather her to my bosom; but white Marysia
stood before me, and the sinful thought flew away. I told Illa that I
could not be her husband, if only because of her faith, which in my eyes
was for the soul of a man what foul rust is for iron; but that I could
give her more than anything which might come from others, that is, the
holy cross, which would cleanse her from original sin, and secure her
salvation. In her blindness she could not find vision; and, seizing her
head with both hands, in great despair, she went away as she had come to
me.
The next day I returned to my labor, which was the more oppressive
because they gave me to eat sparingly. I met Sukyman, also.
"I will bend thee," said he.
"Thou wilt bend only my body," answered I; "for know that, being a
noble, I have a soul that is unbending."
When he heard this, he went away gnashing his teeth. Thus did God punish
me for that deceitful letter; if I had not written it, I should not have
roused Sukyman against me so savagely because I had rejected his
daughter.
On Friday the captives came as usual to meditate, to sing mournful
songs, and wash their wounds. Seeing me in my debasement, they fell at
my feet with earnest weeping, crying that my dignity had been disgraced.
But I did not think so; Christ, though of kingly race, suffered still
greater contempt, wishing by that to show the estate of nobles that the
worth of honorable blood is stained, not by suffering, but by the dread
of it. The prisoners, hearing of the conditions which Sukyman offered
me, cried,--
"Oh, pretend to receive the Prophet; do so only for appearance' sake,
and you will not lose your soul. When son of the powerful Sukyman, you
will bring comfort to yourself and to us, for we shall be your
captives."
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