Had he not been an artist, he would not have survived, perhaps, but he
was saved by his calling. After the death of his wife, he began to make
a monument to her. It is useless for the living to say that it is all
one to the dead in what graves they are lying. Kamionka wished that it
should be beautiful there for his Zosia, and he worked with his heart no
less than his hands. This was why he did not become insane the first
half year, but grew inured to despair.
The man was out of joint and unhappy; but art saved the artist. From
that moment, Kamionka existed by virtue of his calling. People who look
at statues and images in galleries do not divine that artists may serve
their art honestly or dishonestly. In this regard, Kamionka was without
reproach. He had no wings at his shoulders,--he possessed only talent
somewhat above the common, and perhaps, therefore, art could not fill
out his life, or give him recompense for all losses; but he respected it
deeply, and was ever sincere with regard to it. During the long years of
his labor, he had never tempted it, and had never committed injustice
regarding it, either in view of fame, profit, praise, or blame. He
always did that which he felt. During his happy years, when he lived
like other men, he was able to say things touching art which were quite
uncommon, and after that, when people began to turn aside from him, he
thought frequently of this art in his lonely studio, in a manner which
was lofty and honest.
He felt greatly abandoned; but in this there was no cause for wonder.
People's relations must have a certain medium measure in virtue of which
the exceptionally unhappy are cut off from life. For that very reason,
they are covered with as much strangeness and as many faults as a stone
thrown up from a torrent is covered with moss, when it ceases to rub
against others. Now when Kamionka was ill, no living soul looked into
his studio, with the exception of a servant-woman, who came twice a day
to make tea for him, and serve it. At every visit, her advice was to
call in a doctor; but he, fearing the outlay, would not give his consent
to this.
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