_“March 15th._--To _please,_ one must not be faithful. (h) Miss L.,
after losing all her relations, and at thirty years of age, is to be
married next week. She came to me and gushed out about the blessing of
having at last one earthly friend to whom she could confide everything.
On this I felt it my duty to remind her she might lose him by death,
and then what a blank; and I was going on to detach her from the arm of
flesh, when she burst out crying, and left me abruptly; couldn't bear
the truth, poor woman.
“In the afternoon met _him_ and bowed, and longed to speak, but thought
it my duty not to: cried bitterly on reaching home.”
_“March l7th._--Transcribed all the (i) texts on Solomon's Song. It
seems to be the way He (j) has marked out for me to serve him.”
_“March 19th._--Received this letter from Alfred:
'DEAR JANE,--I send you a dozen kisses and a piece of advice; learn
more; teach less: study more; preach less: and don't be in such a
hurry to judge and condemn your intellectual and moral superiors, on
insufficient information.--Your affectionate brother,
ALFRED.'
“A poor return for me loving his soul as my own. I do but advise him the
self-denial I myself pursue. Woe be to him if he rejects it.”
_“March 20th._--A perverse reply from J. D. I had proposed we should
plead for our parents at the Throne. She says she fears that might seem
like assuming the office of the mediator: and besides her mother
is nearer Heaven than she is. What blindness! I don't know a more
thoroughly unhealthy mind than poor Mrs. (k) Dodd's. I am learning to
pray walking. Got this idea from Mr. Plummer. How closely he walks! his
mind so _exactly_ suits mine.”
_“March 22nd._--Alfred returned. Went to meet him at the station. How
bright and handsome he looked! He kissed me so affectionately; and was
as kind and loving as could be: I, poor unfaithful wretch, went hanging
(m) on his arm, and had not the heart to dash his carnal happiness just
then.
“He is gone _there._”
_“March 24th._--Stole into Alfred's lodging when he was out; and, after
prayer, pinned Deuteronomy xxvii. 16, Proverbs xiii. 1, and xv. 5, and
Mark vii. 10, upon his bed-curtains.”
_“March 25th._--Alfred has been in my room, and nailed Matthew vii. 1,
Mark x. 7, and Ezek. xviii. 20, on my wall. He found my diary, and has
read it, not to profit by, alas! but to scoff.”
[Specimen of Alfred's comments. _N.B._ Fraternal criticism:
A. Nolo Episcopari.
B. It's an ill wind that blows nobody good.
D. The old trick; picking one text, straining it; and ignoring six. So
then nobody who is not born married, must get married.
E. Recipe. To know people's real estimate of themselves, study their
language of self-depreciation. If, even when they undertake to lower
themselves, they cannot help insinuating self-praise, be sure their
humility is a puddle, their vanity is a well. This sentence is typical
of the whole Diary or rather Iary; it sounds Publican, smells Pharisee.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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