Alfred had now a soft but dangerous antagonist in Mrs. Dodd. All the
mother was in arms to secure her daughter's happiness, _coute qu'il
coute!_ and the surest course seemed to be to detach her affections
from Alfred. What hope of a peaceful heart without this? and what real
happiness without peace? But, too wise and calm to interfere blindly,
she watched her daughter day and night, to find whether Love or Pride
was the stronger, and this is what she observed--
Julia never mentioned Alfred. She sought occupation eagerly: came
oftener than usual for money, saying, it was for “Luxury.” She visited
the poor more constantly, taking one of the maids with her, at Mrs.
Dodd's request. She studied Logic with Edward. She went to bed rather
early, fatigued, it would appear, by her activity: and she gave the
clue to her own conduct one day: “Mamma,” said she, “nobody is downright
unhappy who is good.”
Mrs. Dodd noticed also a certain wildness and almost violence, with
which she threw herself into her occupations, and a worn look about the
eyes that told of a hidden conflict. On the whole Mrs. Dodd was hopeful;
for she had never imagined the cure would be speedy or easy. To see
her child on the right road was much. Only the great healer Time could
“medicine her to that sweet peace which once she owned;” and even Time
cannot give her back her childhood, thought the mother, with a sigh.
One day came an invitation to an evening party at a house where they
always wound up with dancing. Mrs. Dodd was for declining as usual for
since that night Julia had shunned parties. “Give me the sorrows of the
poor and afflicted,” was her cry; “the gaiety of the hollow world jars
me more than I can bear.” But now she caught with a sort of eagerness at
this invitation. “Accept. They shall not say I am wearing the willow.”
“My brave girl,” said Mrs. Dodd joyfully, “I would not press it; but you
are right; we owe it to ourselves to outface scandal. Still, let there
be no precipitation; we must not undertake beyond our strength.”
“Try me to-night,” said Julia; “you don't know what I can do. I dare say
_he_ is not pining for _me._”
She was the life and soul of the party, and, indeed, so feverishly
brilliant, that Mrs. Dodd said softly to her, “Gently, love; moderate
your spirits, or they will deceive our friends as little as they do me.”
Meantime it cost Alfred Hardie a severe struggle to keep altogether
aloof from Julia. In fact, it was a state of daily self-denial, to which
he would never have committed himself, but that he was quite sure he
could gradually win his father over. At his age we are apt to count
without our antagonist.
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