Hard-Pan: A Story of Bonanza FortunesBonner, Geraldine
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Hard-Pan: A Story of Bonanza Fortunes
Bonner, Geraldine
Gold miners -- Fiction; San Francisco (Calif.) -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
John Gault had gone to this dinner reluctantly. The thought of
Letitia's marriage with Tod was as repulsive to him after a month
had familiarized his mind with it, as it had been on the day Letitia
told him of it. That the large-hearted girl, whose simple honesty of
nature he had learned long ago to respect and rely on, was to give the
freshness and beauty of her life to the feeble and half-bred son of a
day-laborer, seemed to him a sacrilege worthy of the days of Molech. He
had seen little of Letitia lately. When he had been at his brother's
she had generally been absent, staying at the McCormicks', or dining
elsewhere with Tod. Whatever her feelings for her fiancé were, Gault
saw that, with her unswerving obedience to convention and duty, she was
evidently doing her best to understand and grow fond of him.
To-night, however, at the dinner, he saw that a change had taken place
in her. It was so subtle, so illusive, so hard to define, that for a
space he watched her surreptitiously, wondering what it was. Yet even
as he shook hands with her in the moment of greeting, he saw it in
her face, he felt it radiating from her, like the warm individual
atmosphere that is said to encompass us and contain the color of our
personality.
Her eyes dwelt on his with a bright, soft inner look of happiness, but
happiness aloof and far away from him. The impersonal, cold sweetness
of her glance seemed to put him at a great distance, to herd him
together with all the hundred other casual people that she knew and
spoke to, and liked and forgot. Some mysterious influence had suddenly
withered their friendship. Its richness and reality were gone, and as
he met that sparkling, conscious, and yet distant glance, he realized
that Letitia was no longer his friend, nor yet his enemy, but from
henceforth would be the same Letitia to him that she was to his
brother, that she had once been to Tod.
She was in love with Tod McCormick. It was incredible, inconceivable,
but true. He saw it in the abashed and yet proud consciousness of her
manner to him, in her averted eye, in the indefinable softening of her
whole presence when the meager-visaged lad addressed her. Inside she
glowed with the consciousness of the developing of her life; but her
eyes only let a little of the inner light out in their shy shining.
That was why they had lost their look of a dear, comfortable intimacy
when they met his. Now they said that all that was over, a remnant
of freedom that must die with girlhood and its other relinquished
liberties. Everything belonged to some one else now--not love alone,
but interest, loyalty, confidence, duty. The rest of the world was
only to get that cool interest, that gentle, remote kindness, which is
the husk of the woman's heart. The kernel was for her mate. With her
maidenhood would end for Letitia all life but such as bore on the life
of her husband.
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