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Long after Louisa had undressed and lain down, she watched and waited for
her brother’s coming home. That could hardly be, she knew, until an hour
past midnight; but in the country silence, which did anything but calm
the trouble of her thoughts, time lagged wearily. At last, when the
darkness and stillness had seemed for hours to thicken one another, she
heard the bell at the gate. She felt as though she would have been glad
that it rang on until daylight; but it ceased, and the circles of its
last sound spread out fainter and wider in the air, and all was dead
again.
She waited yet some quarter of an hour, as she judged. Then she arose,
put on a loose robe, and went out of her room in the dark, and up the
staircase to her brother’s room. His door being shut, she softly opened
it and spoke to him, approaching his bed with a noiseless step.
She kneeled down beside it, passed her arm over his neck, and drew his
face to hers. She knew that he only feigned to be asleep, but she said
nothing to him.
He started by and by as if he were just then awakened, and asked who that
was, and what was the matter?
‘Tom, have you anything to tell me? If ever you loved me in your life,
and have anything concealed from every one besides, tell it to me.’
‘I don’t know what you mean, Loo. You have been dreaming.’
‘My dear brother:’ she laid her head down on his pillow, and her hair
flowed over him as if she would hide him from every one but herself: ‘is
there nothing that you have to tell me? Is there nothing you can tell me
if you will? You can tell me nothing that will change me. O Tom, tell
me the truth!’
‘I don’t know what you mean, Loo!’
‘As you lie here alone, my dear, in the melancholy night, so you must lie
somewhere one night, when even I, if I am living then, shall have left
you. As I am here beside you, barefoot, unclothed, undistinguishable in
darkness, so must I lie through all the night of my decay, until I am
dust. In the name of that time, Tom, tell me the truth now!’
‘What is it you want to know?’
‘You may be certain;’ in the energy of her love she took him to her bosom
as if he were a child; ‘that I will not reproach you. You may be certain
that I will be compassionate and true to you. You may be certain that I
will save you at whatever cost. O Tom, have you nothing to tell me?
Whisper very softly. Say only “yes,” and I shall understand you!’
She turned her ear to his lips, but he remained doggedly silent.
‘Not a word, Tom?’
‘How can I say Yes, or how can I say No, when I don’t know what you mean?
Loo, you are a brave, kind girl, worthy I begin to think of a better
brother than I am. But I have nothing more to say. Go to bed, go to
bed.’
‘You are tired,’ she whispered presently, more in her usual way.
‘Yes, I am quite tired out.’
‘You have been so hurried and disturbed to-day. Have any fresh
discoveries been made?’
‘Only those you have heard of, from—him.’
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