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‘Yes. But they wouldn’t laugh sometimes, and then father cried. Lately,
they very often wouldn’t laugh, and he used to come home despairing.
Father’s not like most. Those who didn’t know him as well as I do, and
didn’t love him as dearly as I do, might believe he was not quite right.
Sometimes they played tricks upon him; but they never knew how he felt
them, and shrunk up, when he was alone with me. He was far, far timider
than they thought!’
‘And you were his comfort through everything?’
She nodded, with the tears rolling down her face. ‘I hope so, and father
said I was. It was because he grew so scared and trembling, and because
he felt himself to be a poor, weak, ignorant, helpless man (those used to
be his words), that he wanted me so much to know a great deal, and be
different from him. I used to read to him to cheer his courage, and he
was very fond of that. They were wrong books—I am never to speak of them
here—but we didn’t know there was any harm in them.’
‘And he liked them?’ said Louisa, with a searching gaze on Sissy all this
time.
‘O very much! They kept him, many times, from what did him real harm.
And often and often of a night, he used to forget all his troubles in
wondering whether the Sultan would let the lady go on with the story, or
would have her head cut off before it was finished.’
‘And your father was always kind? To the last?’ asked Louisa
contravening the great principle, and wondering very much.
‘Always, always!’ returned Sissy, clasping her hands. ‘Kinder and kinder
than I can tell. He was angry only one night, and that was not to me,
but Merrylegs. Merrylegs;’ she whispered the awful fact; ‘is his
performing dog.’
‘Why was he angry with the dog?’ Louisa demanded.
‘Father, soon after they came home from performing, told Merrylegs to
jump up on the backs of the two chairs and stand across them—which is one
of his tricks. He looked at father, and didn’t do it at once.
Everything of father’s had gone wrong that night, and he hadn’t pleased
the public at all. He cried out that the very dog knew he was failing,
and had no compassion on him. Then he beat the dog, and I was
frightened, and said, “Father, father! Pray don’t hurt the creature who
is so fond of you! O Heaven forgive you, father, stop!” And he stopped,
and the dog was bloody, and father lay down crying on the floor with the
dog in his arms, and the dog licked his face.’
Louisa saw that she was sobbing; and going to her, kissed her, took her
hand, and sat down beside her.
‘Finish by telling me how your father left you, Sissy. Now that I have
asked you so much, tell me the end. The blame, if there is any blame, is
mine, not yours.’
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