Harper's New Monthly Magazine, No. IX.—February, 1851.—Vol. II.Various
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Harper's New Monthly Magazine, No. IX.—February, 1851.—Vol. II.
Various
American literature -- Periodicals; Civilization -- Periodicals; Culture -- Periodicals
On the 17th, that alarming fit recurred; and although, as on the former
occasion, the state of complete insensibility lasted only a short time,
it evidently affected his brain--and from that moment the gravity of his
peril was understood by himself, if not by those about him. On the 8th,
he went worse rapidly. A violent hiccuping came on, attended with
considerable pain, which continued until the middle of the following
day, when it was allayed by means of copious musk drafts.
Early on the morning of the 20th, came to see him his most intimate
friend, Admiral Priestman--a Russianized Englishman in the service of
the empress. During his sojourn at Cherson, Howard had been in the habit
of almost daily intercourse with his gallant ex-countryman. When taken
ill, not himself considering it at first serious, no notice of it had
been sent out; but not seeing his friend for several days, Priestman
began to feel uneasy, and went off to his lodgings to learn the cause.
He found Howard sitting at a small stove in his bedroom--the winter was
excessively severe--and very weak and low. The admiral thought him
merely laboring under a temporary depression of spirits, and by lively,
rattling conversation endeavored to rouse him from his torpidity. But
Howard was fully conscious that death was nigh. He knew now that he was
_not_ to die in Egypt; and, in spite of his friend's cheerfulness, his
mind still reverted to the solemn thought of his approaching end.
Priestman told him not to give way to such gloomy fancies, and they
would soon leave him. "Priestman," said Howard, in his mild and serious
voice, "you style this a dull conversation, and endeavor to divert my
mind from dwelling on the thought of death; but I entertain very
different sentiments. Death has no terrors for me; it is an event I
always look to with cheerfulness, if not with pleasure; and be assured,
the subject is more grateful to me than any other." And then he went on
to say--"I am well aware that I have but a short time to live; my mode
of life has rendered it impossible that I should get rid of this fever.
If I had lived as you do, eating heartily of animal food and drinking
wine, I might, perhaps, by altering my diet, have been able to subdue
it. But how can such a man as I am lower his diet, who has been
accustomed for years to live upon vegetables and water, a little bread
and a little tea? I have no method of lowering my nourishment--and
therefore I must die;" and then turning to his friend, added,
smiling--"It is only such jolly fellows as you, Priestman, who get over
these fevers." This melancholy pleasantry was more than the gallant
sailor could bear; he turned away to conceal his emotion; his heart was
full, and he remained silent, while Howard, with no despondency in his
tone, but with a calm and settled serenity of manner, as if the
death-pangs were already past, went on to speak of his end, and of his
wishes as to his funeral. "There is a spot," said he, "near the village
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