Harper's New Monthly Magazine, No. IX.—February, 1851.—Vol. II.Various
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Harper's New Monthly Magazine, No. IX.—February, 1851.—Vol. II.
Various
American literature -- Periodicals; Civilization -- Periodicals; Culture -- Periodicals
Her exertions redoubled at first, and money poured in; then they became
fitful, she was no longer to be depended on. Pictures were ordered,
sketched, and then they remained untouched for months; her outline was
no longer as bold, her colors less skillfully arranged. The first was
gorgeous and full of beauty, but it remained confused, as if the germ
could not be developed--the tints were more glaring, the whole less well
defined. Pupils too talked of unpunctual attendance, of odd, impatient,
flighty manners; she was no longer the gentle, patient girl who had
first directed their unformed taste, and had charmed out the lingering
talent. There was nothing whispered as yet, but there was a feeling that
all was not right. She was so respected by all, we dared not admit the
suspicion of intoxication even silently to ourselves: still it _would_
come, and we could not repel it; it was not mentioned, even among
intimate friends, but there it lurked. Mrs. Lindsay became uneasy, but
it was too late--her feeble exertions, her remonstrances could not check
the habit: besides, Rosa had never openly exposed herself--been _drunk_
in fact. Her mother only feared she sometimes took a little drop too
much, and it was difficult to refuse this medicinal cheering draught to
so exemplary a daughter.
They were now in easier circumstances: the sisters were educated and
supporting themselves; one was well married; the only brother was now
adding to the family fund, and Walter was returning: there was no longer
any bar to Rosa's marriage. How anxiously we all looked forward to his
return! At last she received a letter, written from Southampton: he had
landed--he would be with her in a few hours. What joy, what delight for
the Lindsays! Now Rosa would be rewarded for her noble sacrifices--at
last she would be happy! The moments sped rapidly on in eager
anticipation; the time drew nearer--he would soon be by her side. She
grew restless, nervous, unable to bear the prolonged suspense: she who
had endured a separation of years, sank under the delay of a few
minutes. She had recourse to her accustomed solace, a little stimulant.
Walter came; and she was prostrate on the sofa, in disgusting
insensibility.
What a meeting for that ardent loving heart! Mrs. Lindsay in tears, the
whole family evidently bent on concealment; and Rosa, who should have
flown to his arms, drunk!--no, not drunk; he could not, would not
believe it--his pure, noble-minded Rosa could not have sunk so far: even
though a smell of ardent spirits pervaded the room, it was the last
vice he could suspect in her. We all had long resolutely closed our eyes
against the evidence of our senses: could he who once knew her
inestimable worth, who had her precious letters, breathing the highest,
most delicate, most womanly feelings, could he so pollute her image?
"What is this?" he cried, "Rosa ill! Oh, what is this? Good heaven, Mrs.
Lindsay!" his eye rested on the half-empty tumbler.
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