Harper's New Monthly Magazine, Volume 2, No. 12, May, 1851.Various
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Harper's New Monthly Magazine, Volume 2, No. 12, May, 1851.
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I know that my guardian angel whispered the thoughts that now came into
my head as I read and pondered; because I had prayed to be led as a
sheep by the shepherd, being but a simple, weakly child. I determined on
two things--to show the letter I had received from Gabrielle to my
father, for conscience loudly whispered concealment was wrong; and never
to quit him, because the time might come when he, perhaps, would
require, or be glad of my attendance. I felt quite happy after forming
these resolutions on my knees; and I wrote to Gabrielle telling her of
them. I know not if my father observed what I said, but he took no
notice, for he was half asleep and smoking; so I left the letter beside
him, as I ever did afterward, for I often heard from my beloved sister:
and oh! but it _was_ hard to resist her entreaties that I would come to
her--that it was for my sake as well as her own she had taken so bold a
step; and that now she had a pleasant home for me, and I refused. It was
hard to refuse; but God was with me, or I never could have had strength
of myself to persevere in duty, and "_deny myself_." When Gabrielle
found arguments and entreaties vain, she gave way to bursts of anguish
that nearly overcame me; but when "I was weak, then I was strong," and I
clasped my precious Bible, and told her I _dared_ not leave my father.
Then came presents of books, and all kinds of beautiful and useful
things, to add to my comfort or improvement. Gabrielle told me they were
settled in a pretty cottage near the Hall, and that Mr. Erminstoun had
forgiven his son. Mr. Erminstoun was a widower, and had five daughters
by a former marriage--Gabrielle's husband being the only child of his
second union: the Misses Erminstoun were all flourishing in single
blessedness, and were known throughout the country-side as the "proud
Miss Erminstouns." These ladies were tall, and what some folks call
"dashing women;" wearing high feathers, bright colors, and riding hither
and thither in showy equipages, or going to church on the Sabbath with a
footman following their solemn and majestic approach to the house of
prayer, carrying the richly-emblazoned books of these "miserable
sinners."
How I pined to hear from Gabrielle that she was happy, and cherished by
her new connections; that she was humbled also, in some measure--abashed
at the bold step she had taken. So young--so fair--so determined. I
trembled, girl as I was, when I thought that God's wrath might fall on
her dear head, and chasten her rebellious spirit.
Six months subsequent to Gabrielle's departure our father died, after
but a few days' severe suffering. Dying, he took my hand and murmured,
"Good child!" and those precious words fell as a blessing on my soul;
and I know he listened to the prayers which God put into my heart to
make for his departing spirit. I mourned for the dead, because he was my
father and I his child....
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