Harry Joscelyn; vol. 1 of 3Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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Harry Joscelyn; vol. 1 of 3
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Families -- England -- Fiction; Inheritance and succession -- Fiction
to lie upon, but without even a coat. He turned his back upon his
father’s house with a bitterness that was indescribable. He could
remember the time when it was delightful to him to go home; but that was
long ago, when he was a boy and knew no better. Even then, what had his
father been to him? a terror even in his lighter moods, which might turn
into fury at any moment. His mother? oh, his mother had been kind
enough, poor soul! For a woman she had done what she could; but at the
best what could a woman do? Poor thing! yes she had been kind. But it is
very difficult for the young to see anyone, even when dear to them,
systematically undervalued without getting to share the sentiment in one
shape or another. Sometimes it rouses a generous mind to hot
partizanship; but Harry had never got that length. He had been indignant
sometimes and conscious, with a little pride, that he was the one who
stood up for his mother--but he had not gone further. And now he could
not help despising her as everybody else did. Just when it was essential
she should stand by him, she had failed him. Call this the consequence
of force which she could not resist, of natural bodily weakness--all
that was very well to say; but a mother worth anything will never run
the risk of bodily force in such an emergency. She will find some way of
getting out of it. She will stand by her son when he needs her, whatever
happens. And Harry’s mother had not done so--just at the critical moment
when he had been driven wild by opposition, when his future career had
been to all appearance cut short and his path shut in before him, she
had failed him! She was as weak as water; there was no faith to be put
in her. A woman like that, Harry reflected, is almost as bad as if she
were not a good woman. Oh, yes; she was a good woman! but what advantage
was it to anyone? What did it matter being good if you were of no use to
those belonging to you? Being good just for yourself, selfishly, that
was a poor sort of business. For her children she was no good. What had
she ever done for any of them? Made a fuss, as Joan said. She was very
good at doing that, was mother! But what more? These were the angry
thoughts that were surging through his mind as he turned his back upon
his home. His father’s image swept across him now and then, raising his
angry despair into momentary rage; but it was not his father, who had
always been hard upon him, but his mother, who had always been so tender
to him, whom Harry assailed with all these bitter thoughts. In her silly
dislike to the only poor little amusement he had, she had turned against
him at the decisive moment. It was just like a woman! Because he would
not tie himself to her apron-strings; because he would not spend his
evenings sitting with her and Joan--a pretty sort of position for a
young man, Harry said to himself, with a curl of his lip.
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