Her mind was quieter now than last night, when, in the first hours of
possessing the exciting idea of a scheme of action so congenial to her,
all had been pleasurable turmoil. Now she could think more connectedly,
could shape her thoughts to some end. She wisely resolved to leave
style alone—at all events at first—until she had ascertained for a fact
that the style which came naturally to her was poor. She would be
careful concerning grammar, but she had always detested the sight of the
outside cover of books upon the subject, and so far as she could
remember, had never opened one.
She set up an imaginary stage in her mind, bringing her characters one
by one to bow before her, and to ask modestly whether they would please
her; what relations they were to bear one to another; what influence
life upon life. Then the grouping must be pleasingly harmonious or
disturbingly discordant: there must be nothing tame nor indifferent
about her work.
"We need not be so absolutely dumb," Digby Travers murmured, and Hazel
awoke with a start. "I’d rather lose all the fish, if catching it can
only be accomplished by not talking to you, or not hearing you talk."
"Hush," Hazel rejoined. "The others don’t feel like that, and besides,"
she added truthfully, "I want to think."
"Oh, well," the young man returned, in a somewhat injured tone, "that is
another thing, of course"; and he continued his occupation in gloomy
silence, the while Hazel resumed her thread of cogitation. Presently she
began to realise that she must be simpler and more methodical in her
ideas—less profound. After all, she was not undertaking the writing of a
book. Let her conjure up some pretty little story, and write it
carefully and faithfully—perhaps the pathos and the humour would take
care of themselves.
That night, in the seclusion of her own room, she set to work, in a
fever of energy and fervent purpose. She had gone upstairs at ten, but
it was nigh upon one o’clock when the girl at length extinguished her
light and laid her down to rest. Even then sleep did not come to her
quickly, for her brain was thoroughly roused and excited.
Three evenings devoted to this work sufficed to complete her story, and
on the fourth, after carefully revising her work, she proceeded to write
it out neatly, and the result of her labour was to her own entire
satisfaction.
Anticipating the certainty of having all in readiness before she slept,
she had, during the day, addressed a letter to Teddie asking him to meet
her in town next morning, which epistle she directed to his lodging; for
she felt the urgency of completing all such arrangements from her
friends’ house, wishing as she did to keep all secret until such time as
she could ask for sympathy in her disappointment, or for congratulations
in her success.
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