He that will not when he may; vol. IIOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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He that will not when he may; vol. II
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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Dolly was used to comforting people who were in trouble. She did not
take away her hand, but went in with him very quietly, like a child,
leading the young man who was so deeply moved. Her own heart was in a
great flutter and commotion, but she kept very still, and led him to her
father’s study and opened the door for him. “Here is Paul, papa,” she
said, as if Paul had been a boy again, coming with an exercise, or to be
scolded for some folly he had done. But afterwards Dolly went back to
her wreaths with her heart beating very wildly. She was ashamed and
angry with herself that it should be so on such a day--the morning of
the funeral. But then it is so in nature, let us chide as we will. One
day ends weeping, and the next thrusts its recollection away with
sunshine. Already the new springs of life were beginning to burst forth
from the very edges of the grave.
When Paul went away after this last bit of melancholy business (he had
come to tell the rector what the hymn was which his mother wished to be
sung) he did not see Dolly again. She was putting all her flowers ready
with which to cover the darkness of the coffin--a tender expedient which
has everywhere suggested itself to humanity. He went away through the
early sunshine, walking with a subdued and measured tread as a man
enters a church not to disturb the worshippers. In Paul’s own mind there
was a feeling like that of convalescence--the sense of something painful
behind yet hopeful before--the faintness and weakness, yet renewal of
life, which comes after an illness. There was no anguish in his grief,
nor had there been after the first agony of self-reproach which he had
experienced, when he perceived the cruelty of his lingering and
reluctance to obey his mother’s call. But that was over. He had at least
done his duty at the last, and now the feeling in Paul’s mind was more
that of respectful compassion for his father now withdrawn out of all
the happiness of his life, than of any sorer, more personal sentiment.
The loss of him was not a thing against which his son’s whole soul cried
out as darkening heaven and earth to himself. The loss of a child has
this effect upon a parent, but that of a parent seldom so affects a
child; yet he was sorry, with almost a compunctious sense of the
happiness of living, for his father who had lost that--who had been
obliged to give up wife and children, and his happy domestic life, and
his property and influence, and the beautiful world and the daylight. At
this thought his heart bled for Sir William; yet for himself beat softly
with a sense of unbounded opening and expansion and new possibility. As
he walked softly home, his step instinctively so sobered and gentle, his
demeanour so subdued, the thoughts that possessed him were such as he
had never experienced before. They possessed him indeed; they were not
voluntary, not originated by any will of his, but swept through him as
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