He that will not when he may; vol. IIOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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He that will not when he may; vol. II
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Fiction
Sir William had his writing-case, and the despatchbox which he carried
everywhere with him, taken down stairs, to the big, bare sitting-room,
in which his wife and he had discussed Paul on the previous night--a
high square room, like a box, as blank and featureless; and there sat
down, and made a pretence of writing his letters,--nay, more than a
pretence, for his mind was preternaturally clear, stirred into activity
and wakefulness more strenuous even than its wont, by the care which was
the undercurrent of all his thoughts, and perpetually present with him.
He wrote several letters about business, public and private, in which
his well-known terse and concentrated style was more concentrated and
terse than ever. And by times he laid down his pen, and breathed a sigh
out of the very depths of his chest, from the bottom of his heart. This
was all the sign he gave of the distractions which were in his mind. It
was much from him. He was not so overwhelmed as his wife by the
suggestion of Paul’s possible entanglement, but he was much more angry,
annoyed, and impatient of the folly which all his wisdom could not cure.
What can be more irritating, confusing, bewildering to a man who knows
himself a power and influence in the world: not to be able to influence
the being nearest to him to persuade his own son to hear reason! There
could not be a greater irony of fate. And behind this irritation and
annoyance there was the other mystery, which only he knew of--the danger
which menaced Paul in those prospects which Paul held so lightly, and
was ready to throw away on the lightest inducement. Would he care as
little for them if they were to disappear from him at the will of
another, not his own? To find himself thus, between two
impossibilities--between his young son whom he could no more move than
he could move a mountain, and another unknown being who for aught he
knew might be as little manageable as Paul, he was held fast and his
mind driven to bay. He kept himself out of the whirl of thought and
feeling which these perplexities raised by mere force of will, and sat
perfectly self-controlled at the bare table writing his letters, himself
as neat as usual, every fold of his trim attire in its right place, his
tie tied with all the usual exactitude, his sentences more sharply cut,
more tersely defined than ever. The suppressed excitement in him acted
as a powerful stimulant, quickening his heart’s action, and intensifying
the clearness of his brain; but now and then he put down his pen, forgot
the imperial problems which were easier to solve than these private
ones, and relieved his full heart with the labouring of a profound sigh;
then set to work once more.
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