He that will not when he may; vol. II — John Shaqi
He that will not when he may; vol. IIOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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He that will not when he may; vol. II
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Fiction
“Why? Mamma does nothing but blame herself. She cries and says we should
not have come. Oh, Paul! and papa, I told you, has had one of his
faints. Will you come?” cried Alice, moved to tears, yet flushing high
with a generous impatience; “or are we to be left to shift for
ourselves?”
“She deserves it,” he said. “What had she to do with it? Surely I am old
enough to manage my own affairs.”
“Is it _mamma_ you mean by she? Then stay--or go where you like. Oh, how
dare you!” cried Alice, wildly angry. “_Mamma!_” This stung her so that
she went to the door hurriedly, going away; but that little flash of
wrath was soon over. She stopped and turned round upon him, making
another appeal. “You don’t deserve that we should care for you; but we
do care for you,” she said. “Oh, Paul! when I tell you papa has had one
of his faints--for what? because to think of you going away, forsaking
us, giving up home, and your own place, and the people that you ought to
care for, was more than he could bear. Paul! how can you leave us--leave
Markham and everything you were once fond of--leave your duty, and the
place you were born to?”
“My dear little Alice,” he said, with a smile, glad to conceal a little
melting of his own heart which was beyond his power of resisting, by
this fine superiority, “speak of things you understand.”
Then Alice flashed upon him with all the visionary vehemence of a girl
in her own defence.
“How should I not understand?” she cried, “Am I so stupid? It is you who
make yourself little, pretending to despise us girls. What is there to
despise in us? We do not fill our head with pride and fancies like you.
We love those who belong to us, and serve them, and do our duty as we
know how. It is not we who leave our old father to suffer, or tear our
mother’s heart in two. It is not we that turn peace into trouble. There
you stand,” cried Alice, “a man! fit to be in parliament making the laws
better--fit to be doing something for them that belong to you, after
learning, learning all your life, doing nothing but learn, that you
might be good for something. And now, all you think you are good for is
to emigrate, like the poor Irish. Is that all you are good for? Then you
ought to be humble, and not dare to turn round and sneer and tell us to
speak of things we understand. Understand! I understand that if you can
do nothing better than that--if, after all, you can only betray us and
forsake us, and be no use, no help to any one, it is a shame!”
Who can doubt that Alice’s eloquence was broken with sobs, and her fury
all blind with tears? She would not, however, for pride, let him see
them fall, but turned away from the door with passionate haste, and flew
down the deserted staircase, swallowing her sobs as best she could, and
dashing away the hasty torrent from her eyes. She heard him laugh as
she got out into the air in all her agitation, and this sound stung
Alice to the heart.
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