He that will not when he may; vol. IIOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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He that will not when he may; vol. II
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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“Don’t be profane!” cried Fairfax, with uplifted hands. “Yes, I am
frightened. I never knew that anybody’s mother could be like that. But,
Miss Markham, will you give me your advice?”
“Is your mother--not living, Mr. Fairfax?”
“She never has been for me--she died so long ago; I am afraid I have
never thought much about her. Ought I to stay, Miss Markham?” He raised
his eyes to her with a piteous look, yet one that was half comic in its
earnestness, and a sudden blush, unawares, as their eyes met, flamed
over both faces. For why? How could they tell? It was so, and they knew
no more.
“Surely,” Alice said; “mamma wishes it, and we all wish it. After
showing us so much kindness, you would not go away the moment you have
come here?”
“But that is not the question,” said Fairfax. “The fact is, I am nobody.
Don’t laugh, or I shall laugh too, and I am much more disposed to cry. I
have a tolerable name, haven’t I? but alas! it does not mean anything. I
don’t know what it means, nor how we came by it. I am one of the
unfortunate men, Miss Markham, who--never had a grandfather.”
Alice had been waiting with much solemnity for the secret which made him
so profoundly grave (yet there was a twinkle, too, which nothing but the
deepest misfortune could quench, in the corner of his eye). When this
statement came, however, she was taken with a sudden fit of laughter.
Could anything be more absurd? And yet in her heart she felt a sudden
chill, a sense of horror. Alice would not have owned it, but this was a
terrible statement for any young man on the verge of intimacy to make.
No grandfather! It was a misfortune she could not understand.
“At least, none to speak of,” he said, the fun growing in his eyes.
“You should not laugh, Miss Markham. Don’t you think it is hard upon a
man? To come to an enchanted palace, where he would give his head to be
allowed to stay, and to feel that for no fault of his, for a failure
which he is not responsible for, which can be laid only to the score of
those ancestors who did not exist----”
“Mr. Fairfax, no one was thinking of your grandfather.”
“I know that; but, dear Miss Markham, you know very well that to-night,
or to-morrow night, or a year hence, your mother, before whom I feel
disposed to go down upon my knees, will say with her smile, ‘Are you of
the Norfolk Fairfaxes, or the Westchester family, or----?’ And I, with
shame, will begin to say, ‘Madam, of no Fairfaxes at all.’ What will she
think of me then? Will not she think that I have done wrong to be
here--that I had no right to stay?”
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