He that will not when he may; vol. IIOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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He that will not when he may; vol. II
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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And to be a visitor in the house at such a melancholy moment was most
embarrassing. There are some people who have a special knack of mixing
themselves up in the affairs of others, and Fairfax was one of these. He
was himself strangely isolated and alone in the world, and it seemed to
him that he had never found so much interest in anything as in this
family story into the midst of which he had been so suddenly thrown.
Almost before he had become acquainted with them, circumstances had made
him useful, and for the moment necessary, to them. He was an intruder,
yet he was doing the work of a son. And then in those long summer
evenings which Lady Markham spent in her husband’s sick-room, what a
strange charmed life the young man had drifted into! When the children
went to bed, Alice would leave the great drawing-room blazing with
lights, for that smaller room at the end which was Lady Markham’s
sanctuary, and which was scarcely lighted at all, and there the two
young people would sit alone, waiting for Lady Markham’s appearance or
for news from the sick-room, with only one dim lamp burning, and the
summer moonlight coming in through the little golden-tinted panes of the
great Elizabethan window. Sometimes they scarcely said anything to each
other, the anxiety which was the very atmosphere of the house hushing
them into watchfulness and listening which forbade speech; but
sometimes, on the other hand, they would talk in half-whispers, making
to each other without knowing it, many disclosures both of their young
lives and characters, which advanced them altogether beyond that
knowledge of each other which ordinary acquaintances possess.
Nothing like love, it need not be said, was in those bits of
intercourse, broken sometimes by a hasty summons from the sick-room to
Alice, or a hurried commission to Fairfax--a telegram that had to be
answered, or something that it was necessary to explain to the doctor.
In the intervals of these duties, which seemed as natural to the one as
to the other, the girl and the young man would talk or would be silent,
somehow pleased and soothed mutually by each other’s presence, though
neither was conscious of thinking of the other. Alice at least was not
conscious. She felt that it was “a comfort” that he should be there, so
sympathetic, so kind, ready to go anywhere at a moment’s notice; and she
had come to be able to say to him “Go” or “Come” without hesitation, and
to take for granted his willing service. But it was scarcely to be
expected that Fairfax should be unconscious of the strangeness of the
union which was invisibly forming itself between them. At first a
certain amusement had mixed with the natural surprise of suddenly
finding himself in circumstances so strange; but it must be allowed that
by degrees Fairfax came to think Sir William’s illness a fortunate
chance, and so long as imminent danger was not thought of, had no
objection to its continuance.
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