He that will not when he may; vol. IIIOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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He that will not when he may; vol. III
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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What could Alice say? She cried, which seemed the only thing possible.
There was no use in tears, but there is sometimes relief when no other
outlet is possible. They wept together, thankful that at least there
were two of them to mingle their tears. And Paul had not come in. He was
wandering about the woods in the moonlight, not caring for anything, his
head light, and his feet heavy. He had fallen, fallen, he scarcely knew
where or when. Instead of the subdued and sad happiness of the morning,
a sense of wounding and bruising and miserable downfall was in him and
about him. He did not know where he was going, though he was acquainted
with every glade and tangled alley of those familiar woods. Once (it was
now September) he was seized by the gamekeepers, who thought him a
poacher, and whose alarmed apologies and excuses when they discovered
that it was Sir Paul, gave him a momentary sensation of self-disgust as
if it were he who was the impostor. “I am not Sir Paul,” was on his lips
to say, but he did not seem to care enough for life to say it. One
delusion more or less, what did it matter?
He walked and walked, till he was footsore with fatigue. He went past
the Markham Arms in the dark, and saw his supplanter through the inn
window talking--to whom?--to Fairfax. What had Fairfax to do with it?
Was it a scheme invented by Fairfax to humble him? Then the unhappy
young fellow strayed to his father’s grave, all heaped up and covered
with the flowers that shone pale in the moonlight, quite detached from
the surrounding graves and upturned earth. He sat down there, all alone
in the silence of the world, and noticed, in spite of himself, how the
night air moved the leaves and grasses, and how the moonlight slowly
climbed the great slope of the skies. When the church tower came for a
little while between him and the light, he shivered. He dropped his head
into his hands and thought he slept. The night grew tedious to him, the
darkness unendurable. He went away to the woods again, with a vague
sense that to be taken for a poacher, or even shot by chance round the
bole of a tree, would be the best thing that could happen. Neither Sir
Paul nor any one--not even a poacher: what was he? A semblance, a
shadow, a vain show--not the same as he who had walked with his face to
heaven in the morning, and everything expanding, opening out around
him. In a moment they had all collapsed like a house of cards. He did
not want to go home; home! it was not home--nor to see his mother, nor
to talk to any one. The hoot of the owl, the incomprehensible stirring
of the woods were more congenial to him than human voices. What could
they talk about? Nothing but this on which there was nothing to say.
Supplanted! Yes, he was supplanted, turned out of his natural place by a
stranger. And what could he do? He could not fight for his inheritance,
which would have been a kind of consolation--unless indeed it were a
law-fight in the courts, where there would be swearing and
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