Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Pacifism -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- United States -- Fiction
Then he looked at her. All that day he had averted his eyes, in
his shame. But now that there could be in her look no rebuke, no
reminiscence of the night, he looked at her as freely as he had looked
that day on the desert, when she had sat his horse before him. Only
then his look had been a flame, and now it was as if the sight of her
was to him a healing power. For she still trusted him. She was lying
here asleep, and she had set him to watch. Immeasurably, she was giving
him back his self-respect, restoring to him his own place in her eyes
and in his own. He had no knowledge that this bore so strong a part in
the creeping sweetness which possessed him. He only knew that he was
happy, that he dreaded the time when she should awaken almost as much
as he longed for it; and he hoped with childish intensity that the
afternoon would never end.
That was an hour such as the man had never known. Women had followed
him, tempted him, run from him, but never in his life had a woman
either begged his help, as one being of another, or walked with him,
comradely. And with women he had always moved as lord and dispenser,
avoiding them, taking them for granted, occasionally pursuing them, but
always as chief actor. Now, suddenly, he had become in his own sight,
infinitely the lesser of the two; and even that grateful return of
belief in himself was a thing which she was, so gently, bestowing. He
sat, sunk in the newness of what had come upon him, making no effort to
understand, and looking neither forward nor back. He was beset alike
by the knowledge that she trusted him, and by the soft movement of her
breathing and by the flushed ripeness of her, and by the fact that, at
any second, she might waken and then smile upon him.
When, toward four o’clock, she did waken, her smile, that was as
instant as at a child’s awakening, was straightway darkened by a cloud
of fear.
“It’s late,” she said. “The train—can we get it now?”
“Can we get it now....” The Inger paused to taste this before he
answered.
“Easy,” he said. “You mean the eight: fifteen for Barstow?”
“Yes,” she said. “The eight: fifteen.” She had not meant for Barstow,
but that, as the farthest eastern destination of those who usually took
train from Inch, was the limit of the Inger’s imagining.
“Easy,” he repeated.
The way of descent, in the slanting light, was incredibly lovely. The
time had assumed another air. With that low sun, everything was thrown
sharply against the sky, like a pattern on a background. Something of
the magic of the Northern days lay upon that Southern land.
Once, feeling suddenly articulate, the Inger looked over his shoulder
at her, as she followed.
“It’s hell, ain’t it?” he said admiringly.
She understood this as the extreme of expression, anywhere applied.
“Ain’t it?” she agreed fervently.
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