It was very little! Yet that much he had really served. To reflect upon
it now gave him a sense of elation greater than when he had beaten
Scofield and his tariff department; greater than when he had quelled the
mob at the People’s; greater than when he had crushed Marien in his arms
like a flower; greater even than when Bessie had looked her love into
his eyes.
He began to perceive that his life was surely mounting from one plane to
another and reflected that he had reached the highest plane of all
to-day when the Angel of the Chair had pinned upon his coat the badge of
Holy Orders; when this other saint, sinking into the dark tide, had
hailed him a minister of God! Highest of all, when this Gloom Woman,
out of her soul’s Gethsemane, had wrung his hand and kissed it so purely
and also hailed him as Minister of God!
For some weeks the little chapel in Encina, its troubles and its
troubled members, continued to exercise a strange fascination over John.
Each Sunday he shepherded the Sunday school and talked a blundering
quarter of an hour to the older folk who gathered; while between Sundays
he devoted an astonishing portion of his time to visiting these
wrangling Christians in their homes, for the ambition to heal this
disgraceful quarrel had taken hold on him like some knightly passion.
And in the midst of all these busy comings and goings, odd,
half-humorous reflections upon his own status used to break in upon
John’s mind. Not a self-respecting church in the communion, he knew,
but would have eyed him askance because he had been an actor. Only this
little helpless church, whose condition was so miserable it could not
reject any real help, accepted him; and that merely in a relation that
was entirely unofficial and undefined. Still a sense of his fitness for
this particular task grew upon him continually; and it was really
astonishing how every experience through which he had passed had
equipped him for his peacemaker task: most of all those pangs endured
because of his break with Bessie, which, although eating into his heart
like an acid, yielded a kind of ascetic joy in the pain as if some sort
of character bleaching and expiation were at work within him.
In the meantime, an arbitration committee consisting of the District
Evangelist, Brother Harding, and Professor Hamilton, the Dean of the
Seminary, was at work upon the affairs of the little church. Both wings
consented to this, but with misgivings, since the one man they were
really coming to trust was Hampstead himself; and when the night for the
report of the arbitration committee arrived, each faction turned out in
full strength, with suspicions freshly roused, and all a-buzz with angry
conversation as if the church were a nest of wasps.
"Things are pretty hot," remarked the Dean under his breath, coming up
to read the report.
"They are awful," groaned the District Evangelist.
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