And vengeance for what? Hampstead kept asking himself that, and never
got farther with an answer than the rage of a self-centered, heartless
woman at his failure to pay the supreme tribute to vanity by making love
to her as once he had done, and giving her the gloating satisfaction of
spurning him as she had spurned him before. This was the extent of his
crime against her, and this bold, bald attempt to destroy him was the
punishment she had devised. Heavens! Had the woman no sense of
responsibility at all? No consciousness of all the terrible harm she
would be doing to so many others besides himself if she succeeded in
ruining him? Think of the men and women who trusted him, the young boys
and girls to whom he was pointed out as a shining example, the
struggling people who found inspiration and courage in the spectacle of
his own dauntless battlings for the right.
John felt that it was not egotism to think of himself in this way. He
knew it as a fact because he had to know it, because men told him so
continually, and because it was a supremely steadying influence upon his
own life. He dared not swerve. Rollie Burbeck was not the only man in
the community who owed him for escape from a fall, or who was toiling
laboriously upward, with an eye on the minister climbing far above and
turning cheerfully to beckon or lower an Alpine rope for part of the
weakened climber’s load.
And the Dounay woman knew all of this. Some of it he had shown to her
in the hope that it would be an inspiration. Some of it she had seen
for herself. But now, in her malice and hatred, she took no account of
all that. Unable to make him swerve, she was wickedly determined to
hurl him down. And having used Rollo Burbeck this far, John had no
doubt at all that her genius would be entirely equal to using him still
further, by binding him to absolute secrecy as to his knowledge of the
minister’s innocence.
But this thought brought home another with shocking force,—the
realization that Rollie, the one man who could vindicate him of this
charge must not vindicate him! For Rollie to speak and ruin himself
seemed only fair, rather than for the minister to be ruined; yet for the
young man to confess would be a terrible blow to the mother,—would in
fact most likely kill her. That was unthinkable. That blow must be
prevented at all hazards.
But even eliminating the mother, and supposing the young man too craven
to speak out for himself, Hampstead knew, thinking back a few hours,
that on his honor as a minister he had sealed his own lips concerning
the young man’s confession; he had hinged his appeal to the moral
consciousness of that misguided youth upon his own fealty as a priest of
God to the sacred trust of confession. How presumptuous this afternoon
sounded that speech which he had made to the wretched penitent this
morning with such easy assurance.
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