Lying there so white and motionless, she looked to John like a crushed
flower. Her very beauty was broken. As he gazed, remorse and
contrition overcoming him, her lips parted in a half smile while she
whispered:
"The—the calculated life cannot always be depended upon, can it?"
Innocently spoken, the words came to John with the force of a reproach,
which hurt all the more because he was sure no reproach had been meant.
She had trusted him, and he had failed. His sense of guilt was already
strong. At the words he leaped up and rushed toward the hat-tree upon
which his hat and coat had been disposed. Yet before he could seize
them and start for the door, Marien was before him, barring his way,
looking pale but majestic, like a disheveled queen.
"Let me go," he said stubbornly. "I am unworthy to be here."
"Stay," she whispered, in a tone sweeter, tenderer, than he had ever
heard her use before. "It is my wish. I do not," and she hesitated for
a word, "I do not misunderstand you—poor, lonely, hungry man!"
"Supper, Madame!" piped the voice of Julie.
*CHAPTER XII*
*A THING INCALCULABLE*
One whole month passed before John sat again at midnight in the Roman
chair with Marien _vis-à-vis_ upon her heaped-up cushions. Many things
may happen in a month. Many did in this. For John it was a month of
progress in his art. Though the People’s Stock Company had passed out
of existence within two weeks after Marien Dounay’s departure from it,
John had done so well that he found no difficulty in securing an
engagement as heavy man across the bay in Oakland with the Sampson
Stock, the grade of which was higher and its permanency well
established.
It was also a month of progress in his passion for Marien Dounay,
although during all those thirty days he did not see her once. In the
meantime imagination fed him. Every memory of that night and every
deduction from those memories fanned the flame of his infatuation. Each
in itself was slight, but they were like a thousand gossamer webs. Once
spun, their combined holding power was as the strength of many cables.
Take, for instance, the environment in which he found her. It spoke
gratifyingly to him of a genuinely good, modest nature to see that she
shrank away from the garish theatrical hotels to this quiet nest with
Julie. It revealed a true woman’s instinct for domesticity not only
surviving but flourishing in this vagabond life to which her profession
compelled her.
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