And yet how unlike the life of the fine women he had known in the old
First Church. It would have so shocked them,—this roving, Bohemian life
that turned the night into day, the deep-sleep time from twelve to three
into the leisure, happy, carefree hours that were like the sun at noon
instead of the dark of midnight. How unbecoming it would have been in
those coddled home-keeping women of the First Church, this reversal of
life,—how immoral even! Yet to her it was natural. In her it was
moral. It did pay a proper respect to those conventions which protect
the character and happiness of woman. It was not prudish. It was
better than prudish, it was good. Her virtue was not forced. It was
hardy, indigenous, self-enveloping. Yes, this whole mode of life became
her in her profession.
And the thought that he was of her profession threw him into raptures.
Hers was a life into which he could enter,—had entered already, by
reason of the favor she had shown him. What could that favor mean?
Nothing else but love. She had given him too much, forgiven him too
much in that one evening for him to question that at all.
And he loved her! Doubt on that score had vanished so many days ago
that he could not remember he had ever doubted it.
That the partnership could not at first be equal, he was humiliatingly
aware; but the development of his own powers would soon balance the
inequality. However, it was something else that for the moment wiped
out of mind the enormity of his presumption, and this was that memory of
unpleasant experiences at which she had hinted. The thought of this
beautiful, ambitious, devoted creature battling her way alone among
selfish, brutal, designing men was maddening to him. The chivalrous
impulse to be with her, to protect her, to battle for her, made him
forget entirely considerations of inequality, and he prepared to offer
himself boldly. If she did not invite him again soon, he meant to seek
her out; but the invitation came before his processes had reached that
stage.
John was impatiently prompt. His eyes leaped upon her eagerly as if to
make sure she was still real, still the flesh and blood confirmation of
his passion. She was,—not a doubt of it. Her eye was bright; the clasp
of her hand was warm. Her personal power was never more evident, its
whimsical manifestations never more varied, interesting, or captivating
than now.
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