Leslie was vaguely dissatisfied; he had worshiped his Aunt Etta with an
ignorant devotion all his life; he had given her the love of a child and
the warm-hearted loyalty of a boy. Now he was grown up. He was nineteen,
and he would probably never be quite as old again--in any case, he would
never feel such unbroken confidence in his own judgment--and what did
his aunt appear? A small, faded, old-fashioned woman, who said “No” to
his wishes.
There is a time in every boy’s life when he looks very narrowly at his
own parents; very often they are the barriers at the gates of his
imaginary Paradise, and he regards them as barriers; but if there is
solid stuff in the youth, the tie is strong enough to hold. His parents
are, of course, wrong, their opinions are worthless, their ideas are
effete and purely mirth-inspiring. But they are his parents. They are
people who love him with a strange love; they are ignorant people, but
he forgives them, and one day discovers that he himself belongs to this
inferior branch of humanity, and is giving his life up for his sons, who
regard him in his turn with affectionate depreciation.
Leslie loved his father with a deep natural love, which time turned into
an irritated need. He had come to the conclusion that women were all
very well, but that feminine relations were a jealous bore, and
that--you must see life.
So he saw life. Saw it immaturely and unwisely--or rather he may have
been said not to see it, but with the rush of youth’s music in his ears
he ran blindfold, and Life mocked him to her heart’s content, and gave
him pebbles for diamonds and dross for gold, till she blunted alike his
discrimination and his growth.
Miss Lestrange stood by watching him with incompetent agony. She had
seen these things happen before to other people’s boys, and she had
always known why. The mothers were silly, the boys were unlicked
cubs--they had been spoilt from the first. Now she was not quite so
sure. Perhaps such things happened just out of misfortune, unhappiness,
blunders that must come, accidents of the type which are said to haunt
families who live according to the best regulations.
Lines came into Miss Lestrange’s placid face, she lost sleep, appetite,
and repose. She woke with vague terrors, she was haunted by impotent
fears. There was nothing to be done, and she hadn’t the strength to do
nothing. Finally, the whole story focused on one notorious lady of
musical comedy. The youth of London gave her desperate homage and
adoration; she was old enough to be their mother; but they did not keep
these gifts for their mothers, they gave them to Anastasia Falaise, and
she accepted them with easy laughter.
Miss Lestrange wrote to her brother, and her brother replied heartlessly
that it was “all right.”
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