Authors -- Fiction; Authorship -- Fiction; Married people -- Fiction
And soon, to Mr. Blatchley's yet greater delight, people did begin to
care. They cared so much, in fact, that they all read the book in
order to find out. And nobody knew even then. It was, however,
something to discuss at boring dinner-parties; so every one was
pleased. Every one but Helena.
Reading the book afresh, she was astounded, terrified, to see how near
it was to life. She had thought it all altered beyond recognition:
fiction merely based on fact. But now she realised that all the parts
of it which mattered--Zoë's ambitions, her husband's repression--were
true, truer than she ever knew indeed: whilst all the
variations--names, place, ages, children, work--made no real difference
at all. In all life it is the soul alone that matters, for there lies
happiness and all those others are mere accidents. And the soul of Zoë
was the soul of Helena; the life of Helena, the life of Zoë. Reading
her book, she realised for the first time her life.
Daily the thing became more of a nightmare.
Hubert, of course, noticed nothing: but Geoffrey Alison grew weary of
her constant admonitions as to silence.
"Oh, for Heaven's sake, Zoë," he cried at last (for he was getting
almost husbandly in his remarks, encouraged by their common secret),
"do try and get rid of the idea that 'all is discovered' and I'm a
silly ass or else a beastly cad!"
"It isn't that," she answered with a gloomy petulance; "but something
might easily happen and I simply don't know how I should face Hubert."
"Hubert? Why, I expect he would be jolly proud of you."
"Proud?" she repeated bitterly; "when he has been so splendid to me
always, and here I am making him out a selfish brute who sacrifices his
wife's happiness to his career and me a poor little bullied creature
who goes upstairs and cries. He'd never believe that it was all
exaggerated--and nor, of course, would anybody else. Proud, indeed? I
do like that!"
Indeed, when she thought of what an awful thing she had done, Helena
very often could have gone upstairs like flabby Zoë (_née_ Virginia)
and wept.
Geoffrey Alison at length got thoroughly impatient with her.
_He_ was enjoying it all hugely and he failed to see why she should not
enjoy it too. Every day he opened his paper eagerly to see what new
scheme the resourceful Blatchley had devised to spur a public interest
which as yet showed no signs of flagging.
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