Henry Dunbar: A NovelBraddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
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Henry Dunbar: A Novel
Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
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"I've so much reason to look cheerful, haven't I?" he said, in the same
tone he had used when he had declared his acceptance of the banker's
bounty. "I've such a pleasant life before me, and such agreeable
recollections to look back upon. A man's memory seems to me like a book
of pictures that he must be continually looking at, whether he will or
not: and if the pictures are horrible, if he shudders as he looks at
them, if the sight of them is worse than the pain of death to him, he
must look nevertheless. I read a story the other day—at least my girl
was reading it to me; poor child! she tries to soften me with these
things sometimes—and the man who wrote the story said it was well for
the most miserable of us to pray, 'Lord, keep my memory green!' But
what if the memory is a record of crime, Mr. Dunbar? Can we pray that
_those_ memories may be kept green? Wouldn't it be better to pray that
our brains and hearts may wither, leaving us no power to look back upon
the past? If I could have forgotten the wrong you did me
five-and-thirty years ago, I might have been a different man: but I
couldn't forget it. Every day and every hour I have remembered it. My
memory is as fresh to-day as it was four-and-thirty years ago, when my
wrongs were only a twelvemonth old."
Joseph Wilmot had said all this almost as if he yielded to an
uncontrollable impulse, and spoke because he must speak, rather than
from the desire to upbraid Henry Dunbar. He had not looked at the
Anglo-Indian; he had not changed his attitude; he had spoken with his
head still bent, and his eyes fixed upon the ground.
Mr. Dunbar had gone back to the window, and had resumed his
contemplation of the street; but he turned round with a gesture of
angry impatience as Joseph Wilmot finished speaking.
"Now, listen to me, Wilmot," he said. "If the firm in St. Gundolph Lane
sent you down here to annoy and insult me directly I set foot upon
British ground, they have chosen a very nice way of testifying their
respect for their chief: and they have made a mistake which they shall
repent having made sooner or later. If you came here upon your own
account, with a view to terrify me, or to extort money from me, you
have made a mistake. If you think to make a fool of me by any maudlin
sentimentality, you make a still greater mistake. I give you fair
warning. If you expect any advantage from me, you must make yourself
agreeable to me. I am a rich man, and know how to recompense those who
please me: but I will not be bored or tormented by any man alive: least
of all by you. If you choose to make yourself useful, you can stay: if
you don't choose to do so, the sooner you leave this room the better
for yourself, if you wish to escape the humiliation of being turned out
by the waiter."
At the end of this speech Joseph Wilmot looked up for the first time.
He was very pale, and there were strange hard lines about his
compressed lips, and a new light in his eyes.
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