It added a sharp touch to her slayer’s compassion, that, in regarding
her mutilated image, she became the mirror of his own. He saw the
parallel between the living and the dead. Every point in this analogy
was so perfect that a mental fascination lurked in its rendering. Did
the texture of his own fate admit of any more lenient inquiry? He also
would have entered his kingdom had he but possessed the little more
that meant so much. Were they not both in the beginning the victims
of a fine and original talent, for she whom he had slain had been the
offspring of a man of the first genius. Her thoughts were his thoughts;
her desires were his desires; the tragedy of each had been that their
fineness had been immolated upon the altar of its base surroundings;
both had failed to scale those precipitous mountain-places from which
alone it was possible to stand in true perspective to their own
characters.
As he pressed home this analogy with that curious grim subtlety that
was always one of his chief pleasures to employ, he began to feel in
his own veins that intense desire of hers to live the life that nature
had appointed, to discover an ampler, a truer self-expression. How was
it possible to arrest those functions that had not had an opportunity
to fulfil themselves? There was a ravishing vigor in his blood; he must
not perish as a felon, he to whom all things were so full of meaning.
The overwhelming force of these thoughts translated them into action.
It had already come to him that to obey his overmastering desire he
must conceal his deed. He raised the heavy corpse in his arms; yet
powerful as he was it proved too much for him to bear. Therefore he
dragged it across the room, and with herculean labor contrived to hoist
it on to the bed. He then drew the curtain across to hide it from
the view of those who should chance to enter the room. Afterwards he
proceeded to ponder the evolution of a means to ensure his own personal
security.
He was still engrossed with this occupation when the old charwoman
entered his room. She had brought him some clean linen. It was
contained in a basket which it was her custom to deposit on a chair
behind the curtain at the foot of his bed.
“You can leave it here, Mrs. Brown,” said Northcote, indicating with
his finger a place on the floor.
“I had better take it out of the way, sir,” said the old woman.
“Besides, I have not made the bed.”
“Never mind the bed,” said Northcote; “that won’t matter at all.”
“Oh, no, sir, it would never do for you not to have your bed made,”
said the old woman, in a tone of quiet but determined expostulation.
“I tell you I don’t want it made,” said Northcote. “You can go.”
The tone of his voice seemed to strike the old woman. Formerly he had
always been kind and gentle to her; he had never used such a tone to
her before.
“Very well, sir,” she said meekly, looking at him with scared eyes.
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