The solicitor turned into his offices and Northcote sauntered along
Chancery Lane. The twilight which had enveloped the city all day was
now yielding to the authentic hues of evening. The dismal street-lamps
were already lit, the gusts of rain, sleet, and snow of the previous
night had been turned into a heavy downpour which had continued without
intermission since the morning. The pavements were bleached by the
action of water, but a miasma arose from the overburdened sewers, whose
contents flowed among the traffic and were churned by its wheels into
a paste of black mud. Northcote was splashed freely with this thick
slushy mixture, even as high as his face, by the countless omnibuses;
and in crossing from one pavement to another he had a narrow escape
from being knocked down by a covered van.
It was in no mood of courage that the young man pushed his way to his
lodgings through the traffic and the elbowing crowds who thronged the
narrow streets. Even the mental picture that was thrown before his eyes
of this garret which had already devoured his youth had the power to
make him feel colder than actually he was. Never had he felt such a
depression in all the long term of his privation as now in wending his
way towards it laboriously, heavily, with slow-beating pulses.
He was sore, disappointed, angry; his pride was wounded by the attitude
of his client. His self-centred habit caused him to take himself so
much for granted, that at first he could discern no reason for this
_volte-face_. In his view it was inconsiderate to withhold the moral
support of which at this moment he stood so much in need. Truly the
lot of obscurity was hard; its penalties were of a kind to bring many
a shudder to a proud and sensitive nature. The patronizing insolence of
one whom he despised was beginning to fill him with a bootless rage,
yet in his present state how impotent he was before it. He must suffer
such things, and suffer them gladly, until that hour dawned in which
his powers announced themselves.
That time was to-morrow--terrible, all-piercing, yet entrancing
thought! The measure of his talent would then be proclaimed. Yet all in
an instant, like a lightning-flash shooting through darkness, for the
first time the true nature of his task was revealed to him. Doubt took
shape, sprang into being. Its outline seemed to loom through the dismal
shadows cast by the lamps in the street. Who and what was he, after
all, in comparison with a task of such immensity? With startling and
overwhelming force the solicitor’s meaning was suddenly unfolded to him.
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