In a moment: “You’d be awfully good--if you’d tell me about my voice,”
she brought out, and flushed. The surface hardness which she had forced
on herself did not go deep yet. Quickly she went on, and her young face
grew oddly keen. “You see--Mr. McIvor--I’ve _got_ to make money. And
I’ve been told--my voice was--good for it. Not a little money--lots! I
hate--getting along--being hard up. If you’d say--that I’ve got a real
voice----”
McIvor drew his brows together. “Make money! And you seventeen!” he
said as if to himself, but his eyes were stern. “Miss Mannering, you
are going the wrong way to be an artist. Art is an exacting mistress.
The price she asks for success is one’s heart. If ye cannot give
that, if ye cannot love music for music’s sake”--McIvor dropped into
Scotchness at odd times; it was a sign of strong feeling--“ye’ll not
be great. Ye certainly hae a fine organ for singin’; it’s a grand
machine God has gi’en ye. But I know now what’s troublin’ me about your
voice--the soul’s not there. An’ gi’en ye persist in wantin’ money
first, the soul will not find its way in. Ye’ll be no true singer. It’s
mechanical, that lovely big voice of ye, and it’ll move no man. What
the true singer wants is to stir the hearts of people and send them
awa’ to help the world, because his music has helped them. Would na’ ye
like to do that?”
Honor’s soft mouth was firm. “No,” she said. “I don’t care. I want
their money.” McIvor shook his head.
The girl stared at him. She was fearless and obstinate. Not easily
did she let go a purpose. “Mr. McIvor,” she said at last, “you don’t
understand. I’ve _got_ to make money. And my voice is my one way. Thank
you for listening. You know everything, and I very little, but--people
who can judge have told me I could do a lot with my voice--and I’m
going to. You say yourself it’s a good--machine. I’ve--I’ve--” She was
half sobbing with angry distress. Yet she was determined. “I’ve planned
my career, and I’ll stick to it. I’ll succeed. I’ll make lots of money.
You’ll see.”
Suddenly she whirled and, springing down the steps, ran full tilt
across the lawn to a break in the lattice, and dropping to the ground,
slid through like a rabbit.
McIvor looked up at Barron. The two men laughed a little, and then the
musician sighed. “The poor baby,” he said. “She’s got so much, and
she’s likely goin’ to throw it away. Money! At seventeen! An’ she with
the face of a seraph and a voice out of ten million!”
“Perhaps she’ll grow up. She’s only a baby,” Barron considered,
and went on to explain a bit to the other how things were at the
Mannerings, and the influences that had shaped the motherless girl.
“If,” said McIvor, “she has the right stuff, life will come along some
day with a big emotion, and money and such trash will go smash. And the
world will get one of its great music-makers. But a singer without a
soul is no good.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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