American fiction -- 20th century; Short stories, American
Willard was oppressed by the thought that had always lurked beneath his
other doubts. They talked, he and Mr. Blandhorn, of the poor ignorant
heathen—but were not they themselves equally ignorant in everything that
concerned the heathen? What did they know of these people, of their
antecedents, the origin of their beliefs and superstitions, the meaning
of their habits and passions and precautions? Mr. Blandhorn seemed never
to have been troubled by this question, but it had weighed on Willard
ever since he had come across a quiet French ethnologist who was
studying the tribes of the Middle Atlas. Two or three talks with this
traveller—or listenings to him—had shown Willard the extent of his own
ignorance. He would have liked to borrow books, to read, to study; but
he knew little French and no German, and he felt confusedly that there
was in him no soil sufficiently prepared for facts so overwhelmingly new
to root in it.... And the heat lay on him, and the little semblance of
his missionary duties deluded him ... and he drifted....
As for Mr. Blandhorn, he never read anything but the Scriptures, a
volume of his own sermons (printed by subscription, to commemorate his
departure for Morocco), and—occasionally—a back number of the missionary
journal that arrived at Eloued at long intervals, in thick mouldy
batches. Consequently no doubts disturbed him, and Willard felt the
hopelessness of grappling with an ignorance so much deeper and denser
than his own. Whichever way his mind turned, it seemed to bring up
against the blank wall of Harry Spink’s: “What’s the use?”
He slipped through the crowds in the congested gateway, and made
straight for the Mission. He had decided to go to the French
Administration, but he wanted first to find out from the servants what
Mr. Blandhorn was doing, and what his state of mind appeared to be.
The Mission door was locked, but Willard was not surprised; he knew the
precaution was sometimes taken on feast days, though seldom so early. He
rang, and waited impatiently for Myriem’s old face in the crack; but no
one came, and below his breath he cursed her with expurgated curses.
“Ayoub—_Ayoub_!” he cried, rattling at the door; but still no answer.
Ayoub, apparently, was off too. Willard rang the bell again, giving the
three long pulls of the “emergency call”; it was the summons which
always roused Mr. Blandhorn. But no one came.
Willard shook and pounded, and hung on the bell till it tinkled its life
out in a squeak ... but all in vain. The house was empty: Mr. Blandhorn
was evidently out with the others.
Disconcerted, the young man turned, and plunged into the red clay
purlieus behind the Mission. He entered a mud-hut where an emaciated
dog, dozing on the threshold, lifted a recognizing lid, and let him by.
It was the house of Ahmed’s father, the water-carrier, and Willard knew
it would be empty at that hour.
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