Hesperus; or, Forty-Five Dog-Post-Days: A Biography. Vol. II.Jean Paul
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Hesperus; or, Forty-Five Dog-Post-Days: A Biography. Vol. II.
Jean Paul
Fiction
The Evangelist threw a corrosive drop on the nerves of Victor's heart,
when, despite his knowledge of Flamin's noble extraction, he twitted
him with this, that like a modern French Equilibrist of Freedom, he
could not marry indeed a citizen, but yet could--fight with one. And it
went through his soul to see the friend who had been stolen from him so
sorely impoverished in friends, that this Matthieu was the last scion
and support of the line, who did not even before Victor take the
trouble in the higher circles to assume and continue playing the part
of a friend of Flamin. A good man has his sensitive heart screwed, as
it were, into a flattening press, when he is obliged to stand before
people (as Victor here is before so many) who hate and insult him,--in
the beginning he is cheerful and cool, and is glad that he cares
nothing about it,--but he unconsciously arms himself with more and more
contempt, by way of opposing something to the insult,--at last the
growth of the contempt announces itself by the disagreeable feeling of
love going out and hatred coming in, and the bitter aqua-fortis seizes
and devours its own vessel, the heart.--Then the pain becomes so great,
that he lets the old human love, which was the warm element of his
soul, run again in streams into his bosom. With Victor something else
was added to the embittering elements,--his previous softening; one is
never colder than after great warmth, just as water, after boiling,
assumes a greater coldness than it had before. Love, intoxication, and
sometimes the inspiration drunk from the sight of nature, make us too
kind towards our favorites, and too hard upon our antipodes. Now when
Victor in this bitter mood looked on at a card-table, and delivered to
himself internal lectures upon the whole assembly, _lectures on
heads_,[143] in which, instead of heads of pasteboard, he availed
himself of thicker ones: then the recollection of the still, humane
tolerance wherewith Clotilda had accommodated herself to these very
people out of love to her parents, made the whole ice-panoply which had
formed around his heart, as round a flower, melt down, and his warmed
heart said with the first joy it had known to-day: "Why then do I hate
these full as much tormented as tormenting shapes so bitterly? Are they
here only on my account? Have not they also their conscious being? Must
they not drag with them this defective, afflicted self through all
Eternity? Is not each of them still loved by some soul or other? Why
shall I then see in them only matter for detestation, and draw acid
from every look, every tone? No, _I will love men merely because they
are men_."--Yes, indeed! friendship may desire merits, but philanthropy
only the human form. Hence it is precisely that we have all such a cold
changeable love of man, because we confound the _worth_ of men with
their _claim_, and will not love anything about them, but virtues.
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