Hesperus; or, Forty-Five Dog-Post-Days: A Biography. Vol. II.Jean Paul
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Hesperus; or, Forty-Five Dog-Post-Days: A Biography. Vol. II.
Jean Paul
Fiction
To-day I present Emanuel's last day (which now lies cooled off and
extinguished among the days of eternity) with pale outlines to the
fantasies of men. My hand trembles and my eye burns before the scenes
which in funeral veils glide around me and lift their veils so near to
me.----I shut myself up to-night,--I hear nothing but my thoughts,--I
see nothing but the night-suns which move across the heavens,--I forget
the weaknesses and the stains of my heart, that I may get the courage
to lift up my head as if I were good, as if I dwelt on the height where
around the great man like constellations lie only God, Eternity, and
Virtue. But I say to them who are better,--to the silent great heart,
which _increases_ its obligations in _fulfilling_ them, and which
satisfies itself _as its conscience grows_ only with daily increasing
merits,--to the lofty men who have warmly pressed the hand of death,
who can calmly ask him, when he walks round on morning-meadows,
"Seekest thou me to-day?"--to the panting soul which cools itself
under the _cypress-tree_,--to the men with tears, with dreams, with
wings,--to all these I say, "Kinsmen of my Emanuel, your brother
stretches out his hand after you through the shortest night; grasp it,
he would fain bid you farewell!"
THE SUBLIME HOUR BEFORE MIDNIGHT.
Victor rose sadly from his dreams, in which he had seen nothing but
graves and funeral piles for his friend; but he gathered secret hopes
at the morning-greeting, as he saw him step forth into his alleged
death-morning without fever, without oppression, without change. His
only concern was about the impression which the disappointed hope of
departure would make upon the heart of the beloved friend, already half
torn from the earthly soil and laid bare from earthly environment. The
latter, on the contrary, still held fast to his dreams, to which even
his nightly ones gave nourishment; and he looked yearningly into the
starless blue, and calculated the long road to the twelfth night-hour,
when, out of heaven should peer forth the stars, and death with that
dark, immense mantle of his, in which he bears us through his cold
realm. His heart lay in a sweet siesta, which proceeded partly from
bodily exhaustion and from the beauty of the day. His inner calm, never
so great and magical as in souls in which whirlwinds and hurricanes
have swept to and fro, overspread his whole being with a bliss of
yearning which in other eyes than his would have melted in tear-drops.
O Rest! thou soft word!--autumnal bloom of Eden! Moonlight of the
spirit! Rest of the soul, when wilt thou hold our head, that it may be
still, and our heart, that it may cease beating? Ah, ere the one grows
pale and the other stiff, thou comest often and goest often, and only
down below with sleep and with death thou abidest, whereas above, men
with the greatest wings, like birds of paradise, are whirled about most
of all by the storms!
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