Hesperus; or, Forty-Five Dog-Post-Days: A Biography. Vol. II.Jean Paul
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Hesperus; or, Forty-Five Dog-Post-Days: A Biography. Vol. II.
Jean Paul
Fiction
The tranquillity with which Emanuel played out the star-part of life,
even to the last catch-word,--with which he packed up everything--set
all to rights--gave all directions--took leave of all,--stirred up
tears and tempests together in his tormented friend. His heart had
been, indeed, dragged till it was sore over a stony road, but its
inflammations were now softly cooled off by the thought of death; yet
he could not--though with the greatest incredulity about Emanuel's
death--endure to hear it, when Emanuel committed to him at a distance
the blind Julius, from whom this death was concealed, with the
low-spoken words, "Hold him dear as I do, protect, provide for the poor
child, till thou canst deliver him over to Lord Horion." His trembling
hands could hardly take from him a packet to that lord, which the
friend handed to him with tender eyes and with the words, "When these
seals are opened, then my oaths have ceased and thou wilt learn all."
For his tender conscience allowed him to conceal only the _import_, not
the _existence_ of secrets.--It will not astonish us, as Victor's veins
received one wound after another, that, in order not to increase their
bleeding by agitations, he begged the flute-player not to play to-day;
music would, on this day, have had too much power over his dissolved
heart.
The morning they spent in farewell-visits to old paths, bowers, and
heights; but Emanuel performed not here the sharp, passionate
climax-part of the fifth act; he broke not forth, upon an earth where
death grazes, into any unphilosophical outcry because he should not see
the flowers plucked and the grain cut, nor the green fruit grow yellow;
but with a higher rapture, which beyond the earthy spring promised
itself still fairer ones, he took his leave of every flower, went
through every leafy winding and shadowy night-piece, drew out of every
mirroring pond his transfigured form lying as it were in the earth, and
showed a more affectionate attentiveness to nature, now that he hoped
to-night to come nearer to Him who created it. He sought and Victor
shunned every occasion to speak of all this. "Only not for the last
time!" said the latter. "Not?" said Emanuel.--"Does not everything
happen only once and for the last time?--Do not Autumn and Time, as
well as Death, separate us from all?--Does not all part from us, even
if we do not part from it?--Time is nothing but a death with softer,
thinner sickles; every minute is the autumn of the past one, and the
second world will be the spring of a _third_.----Ah, when I one day
retire again from the flowery surface of a second, and when on the
heavenly death-day I see the twilight of the memory of two lives,----O
in the future lies a groundwork for infinite bliss as well as woe, why
does man shrink with awe only before this?"--Victor disputed the
immortality of memory. "Without memory," said Emanuel, "there is no
life, only existence, no years, only seconds,--no _I_, only
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