"I wish there was a looking-glass in the house, mother, that it might
tell you; you should be called Naomi instead of Marah."
"Ah! that is just what he used to say to me in the old, happy time--the
time in Paradise, before the serpent entered!"
"What 'he,' mother?"
"Your father, boy, of course."
That was the first time she had ever mentioned his father to her son,
and now she spoke of him with such a flush of joy and hope that even
while her words referred darkly to the past, her eyes looked brightly to
the future. All this, taken with the events of the preceding evening,
greatly bewildered the mind of Traverse and agitated him with the
wildest conjectures.
"Mother, will you tell me about my father, and also what it is beyond
this promised kindness of Major Warfield that has made you so happy?" he
asked.
"Not now, my boy; dear boy, not now. I must not--I cannot--I dare not
yet! Wait a few days and you shall know all. Oh, it is hard to keep a
secret from my boy! but then it is not only my secret, but another's!
You do not think hard of me for withholding it now, do you, Traverse?"
she asked, affectionately.
"No, dear mother, of course I don't. I know you must be right, and I am
glad to see you happy."
"Happy! Oh, boy, you don't know how happy I am! I did not think any
human being could ever feel so joyful in this erring world, much less
me! One cause of this excess of joyful feeling must be from the
contrast; else it were dreadful to be so happy."
"Mother, I don't know what you mean," said Traverse uneasily, for he was
too young to understand these paradoxes of feeling and thought, and
there were moments when he feared for his mother's reason.
"Oh, Traverse, think of it! eighteen long, long years of estrangement,
sorrow and dreadful suspense! eighteen long, long, weary years of
patience against anger and loving against hatred and hoping against
despair! your young mind cannot grasp it! your very life is not so long!
I was seventeen then; I am thirty-five now. And after wasting all my
young years of womanhood in loving, hoping, longing--lo! the light of
life has dawned at last!"
"God save you, mother!" said the boy, fervently, for her wild, unnatural
joy continued to augment his anxiety.
"Ah, Traverse, I dare not tell you the secret now, and yet I am always
letting it out, because my heart overflows from its fulness. Ah, boy!
many, many weary nights have I lain awake from grief; but last night I
lay awake from joy! Think of it!"
The boy's only reply to this was a deep sigh. He was becoming seriously
alarmed. "I never saw her so excited! I wish she would get calm," was
his secret thought. Then, with the design of changing the current of her
ideas, he took off his coat and said:
"Mother, my pocket is half torn out, and though there's no danger of my
losing a great deal out of it, still I'll get you, please, to sew it in
while I mend the fence!"
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