United States -- History -- Civil War, 1861-1865 -- Fiction
"No, aunty dear, I am not restless. I have outlived and outgrown that
phase of my life. You will find that my pulse is as even as yours.
Indeed I have a deep enjoyment of this profound quiet of our house. I
have fully accepted my lot, and now expect only those changes that come
from without and not from within. To be perfectly sincere with you, the
feeling is growing that this profound quietude that has fallen upon me
may be the prelude to final rest. It's right that I should accustom
your mind to the possibilities of every day in our coming campaign,
which I well foresee will be terribly severe. At first our generals did
not know how to use cavalry, and beyond escort and picket duty little
was asked of it. Now all this is changed. Cavalry has its part in every
pitched battle, and in the intervals it has many severe conflicts of
its own. Daring, ambitious leaders are coming to the front, and the
year will be one of great and hazardous activity. My chief regret is
that Hilland's wound did not disable him wholly from further service in
the field. Still he will come out all right. He always has and ever
will. There are hidden laws that control and shape our lives. It seems
to me that you were predestined to be just what you are. Your life is
rounded out and symmetrical according to its own law. The same is true
of Hilland and of myself thus far. The rudiments of what we are to-day
were clearly apparent when we were boys. He is the same ardent, jolly,
whole-souled fellow that clapped me on the back after leaving the
class-room. Everybody liked him then, everything favored him. Often
when he had not looked at a lesson he would make a superb recitation. I
was moody and introspective; so I am to-day. Even the unforeseen events
of life league together to develop one's characteristics. The
conditions of his life today are in harmony with all that has been; the
same is true of mine, with the strange exception that I have found a
home and a dear staunch friend in one who I supposed would ever be a
stranger. See how true my theory is of Grace and her father. Her
blithesome girlhood has developed into the happiest wifehood. Her brow
is as smooth as ever, and her eyes as bright. They have only gained in
depth and tenderness as the woman has taken the place of the girl. Her
form has only developed into lovelier proportions, and her character
into a more exquisite symmetry. She has been one continuous growth
according to the laws of her being; and so it will be to the end. She
will be just as beautiful and lovable in old age as now; for nature, in
a genial mood, infused into her no discordant, disfiguring elements.
The major also is completing his life in consonance with all that has
gone before."
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