He wrought for many days; and then gradually a strange awe began to
assail him. There was something emerging from the darkness, a light, a
vibration, which shook and confused his purpose. What was it? A
Judas--with the glimmer of some lost angel reappearing, faint and
indefinite, in the backward abysm of his eyes! That would never do--or
would it--perhaps the best of all? He stayed his hand in amazement.
The wonder grew, and with it some emotion, some reluctant sympathy
with the debased thing--reciprocal, he somehow felt it to be.
And then one morning suddenly the creature spoke. It was in the
refectory, whither he had been conveyed, that the Master might
consider him in his actual relation to the composition--whence, still
flowered, faint and mystic, the unsolved riddle of the Christ--and his
voice came in a moment like a breaking water:
“He lied to Heaven and his mother, Messer; he had never hung the
little gold and crystal reliquary at the shrine of the Beata Virgine
in Saronno!”
Leonardo started violently and faced round. He stood gazing rigid at
the speaker, like one stricken by some mortal memory.
“He was a hypocrite and a libertine,” cried the apparition, wildly
striking its breast. “He had never left Milan. He had hung the
reliquary about the neck of a little evil courtesan of the Ghetto, and
with it had bought of her the hour’s bliss he had long and greedily
coveted. But his mother, believing him, was cured through her faith;
and, when she was restored, she herself made a pilgrimage of gratitude
to the shrine, and she discovered what alone was to be found
there--the killing truth. And thence she returned, the false life
ebbing from her drop by drop, and, coming home, she read the
confirmation in his eyes and she died of it. And you could not read
it, Messer, as a mother came to; but the riddle spoiled your
Christ--as it need not spoil your Judas. I am well portrayed at
last--I am well.”
He ceased, dropping his head; and Leonardo found his voice in a cry:
“Thou art Lucio!”
And the other muttered:
“Yes, I am Lucio, who came to thee for Christ and remain’st as Judas.”
Then Leonardo said:
“He forgave them on the cross. As thou look’st towards Him whom in
thine own image thou hast betrayed, so shalt thou find mercy, even
thou. In Judas’ eyes I find my Christ at last.”
Wu Taotsz, the Celestial
Painter
In his fortress-palace at Nankin sat the Emperor Shun-yuen. It was a
torrid day of the year 750, and the Emperor was fretful. Surfeit of
power, he was reflecting, did not spell content. On the contrary, like
lesser surfeits, it discomposed. It was a natural paradox, perhaps,
that his seeming so full should make life appear so empty. He could
not, for all his omnipotence, both eat his cake and have it.
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