Christian fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; United States -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
Not that Bergan understood, or would ever be likely to understand, the
full measure and real character of the change that had been wrought in
him under that lowly church-roof. Up to this point, his life had been
from without, inward; henceforth, it was to be from within outward.
The inner life of the soul was really begun in him,--feebly,
half-unconsciously, it is true,--yet possessing a hidden power of
assimilation and growth, that would soon bend all things to itself.
Storm and sunshine, darkness and light, success and failure, would
alike minister to its wants, and help it to grow fair and strong.
Things most inimical to it, at first sight, would but give it tougher
fibre and lovelier grain; in the drought, it would but send its roots
down deeper in pursuit of hidden wells; under the pruning-knife, it
would but burst forth into fairer blossoms and richer fruit.
Yet it was no sudden change, for all his life had been a preparation
for it. Oftenest the kingdom of God cometh without observation. The
stones of the spiritual temple may be fashioned amid clamor and
discord, but they are laid in their places with a silence that is full
of meaning.
III.
SEEING, BUT UNDERSTANDING NOT.
The service being ended, Bergan naturally turned to his kinsfolk for an
ampler and friendlier greeting than had been possible at their hurried
meeting in the crowded vestibule. Especially--with a grateful
remembrance of her yesterday's cordiality--did he look to his aunt for
a word of familiar kindness, that should make him feel less alone, less
of a stranger, amid the friendly chorus of salutations and
leave-takings coming to his ears from the departing congregation. But,
to his surprise and pain, the same indefinable chill which had made him
so vaguely uncomfortable with her husband and daughter, had now taken
possession of her also, and woven a thin film of ice over the manner
that yesterday was so kind.
The change was so unaccountable that he could not believe in it. He
told himself that the real thing at fault was his own sickly
imagination, that he was morbidly sensitive, as well as foolishly
exacting. He convinced his understanding, but could not silence his
heart. That Cassandra of the depths continually smote his unwilling
ear with her lugubrious voice, calling upon him to observe how
strangely Mrs. Bergan had been transformed overnight, from the
interested, cordial, even affectionate aunt, into the polite and
practised woman of the world, doing merely what courtesy required for
the entertainment of the guest that circumstances had flung upon her
hands.
In this state of affairs, Bergan would gladly have exchanged the dinner
at Oakstead for a quiet afternoon in his room and a sober talk with his
thoughts. But the invitation being already accepted, he must needs
abide by the event. Accordingly, he took the vacant seat in his
uncle's carriage, and was soon set down at the cottage steps.
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