Christian fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; United States -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
Never before could he have so clearly understood what was meant by the
"bands" of sins, committed, not of deliberate intent, but through
frailty. How painfully he felt the pressure of those bands! how
certainly they would cramp his efforts and hinder his progress! And
how singularly distinct they had become to his sight, both in their
nature and their effects, by means of that old, oft-repeated, yet ever
new, Collect!
With a half-unconscious attempt at divination, Bergan turned over the
leaves of his Prayer Book, during the short pause before the psalm,
wondering what other mystic meanings were waiting under familiar words,
for his future needs. It was not without a little chill at his heart
that his eye caught the opening sentences of the burial anthem.
There could be no question about that. Whatever else might or might
not be waiting for him, that was certain, some day, to be said over his
dead body, and vainly to try to find entrance into his deaf ears. But
when? At the end of a long life; in the midst of his days; or ere his
work was scarce begun?
His work. What was it? To walk in a vain shadow? To disquiet himself
in vain? To heap up riches for an unknown gatherer? To write his name
high on the temple of Fame? To become a philanthropist, or a reformer?
No; but to "apply his heart unto wisdom."
It was both a deep and a hard saying. Bergan felt that he could not
fathom it, even while he saw how ruthlessly it struck at the roots of
human pride, and lopped the boughs of personal ambition.
Meanwhile, the psalm had been sung, and with a rustling of leaves and
garments, the congregation had settled themselves into their seats.
Through the succeeding hush, Mr. Islay quietly sent the words of his
text: "Whatsoever thy hand findeth to do, do it with thy might, for
there is no work, nor device, nor knowledge, nor _wisdom_, in the grave
whither thou goest."
It was the word in season!
Bergan left the church that day, not only with a deeper sense of his
own mortality, and consequent weakness, than ever before; but also with
a modified view of life's work and duty. In one sense, it was a
narrower view,--with that narrowness which feels the need of some true,
fixed centre, from which to work outward, with any degree of safety and
system, and, consequently, of success. He began to see that he who
would influence others for good, and through them the world, must first
be certain of the point where his influence begins, and that toward
which it tends.
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