Hope Mills; Or, Between Friend and SweetheartDouglas, Amanda M.
Philosophy
Hope Mills; Or, Between Friend and Sweetheart
Douglas, Amanda M.
Fiction
At Depford Beach they had come in contact again. There was both
attraction and repulsion in these two people, as there often is in
strongly-marked, positive natures. She tolerated him because he was
Sylvie's lover; despised him, believing that he meant to make a
stepping-stone of this girl's wealth and position; and, in spite of
herself, felt the current of his strength and buoyant energy. By slow
degrees the unwilling truth was forced upon her, that God never created
any human soul for its own self-destruction; that there was no absolute
virtue in warping and twisting circumstances into chains and bonds, that
were ordained for higher, nobler purposes. Her mental disease had run
its course. Sylvie's sorrow was the final electric shock that broke the
heavy soil of apathy.
Her utter surprise when she found that through all these years Jack
Darcy had refrained from influencing Sylvie in his behalf, was something
quite indescribable. She thought she had fathomed men's souls with her
keen insight, but this man was a Saul amid his peers. Had there been
some subtile, far-reaching foundation for Fred's regard in the boyhood
days,--something that their eyes, being holden with golden bonds, could
not see?
After the marriage there was a certain degree of association, not
intimacy. And yet she set herself to watch him. Somewhere she would
discern the print of the feet of clay this idol of Fred and Sylvie's
possessed.
It was a most fascinating yet dangerous employment. She used to sit
there in her impassive grace, as they talked, weighing every word,
testing every sentiment, watching the expressions that flitted over Jack
Darcy's countenance, until it went everywhere with her, the blue-gray
eyes piercing the very depths of her soul. They came to the one night
when a glance stirred and troubled both, when the depths of both natures
experienced that curious shock of repulsion and wonder. It was not love,
it was too near, too awesome, yet too spiritually pure, to be hate,
still it sent them apart none the less surely.
By degrees, even amid the hard struggle of the strikes, he came to a
self-knowledge. His perceptions were not easily confused; and by that
intuitive process born pure in every soul, but too often marred and
dulled by the many counterfeits put upon it, he knew this was love, a
life-long passion for one woman, not because she had as yet answered any
need of his nature, or promised any expansion into higher life. He loved
her just as she was; for her beauty, her swift, proud grace, her virtues
if she had any, her very faults, and of those he was not in doubt. And
he set himself to win her with the same high courage that had taken Hope
Mills in hand.
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