Hope Mills; Or, Between Friend and SweetheartDouglas, Amanda M.
Philosophy
Hope Mills; Or, Between Friend and Sweetheart
Douglas, Amanda M.
Fiction
THE regal woman who stepped from the car to the station-platform at
Yerbury, one balmy day in early June, to be greeted by Fred and Sylvie
Lawrence with the warmest of welcomes, was indescribably different from
the pale, cold, haughty statue that had gone away. There was an
elasticity in her step, a self-reliance in her air, and the peculiar
confidence discipline wisely used inevitably imparts.
Yet there had been no romantic or highly-wrought change in her. She had
not taken up teaching from any heroic motive or the possible benefit to
any one, but simply to protect herself from what she considered the
weakness of her own soul, to get away from a danger she could not fight.
Oh, how she had hated French verbs and exercises! If hers had been a
susceptible musical temperament, she would have gone quite crazy with
the blunders and sentimentalisms of young girls.
After a month of it, she would have welcomed any relief, even the
face-to-face conflict with Darcy. But she could not well run away from
here, and her physical health was perfect: so there was nothing but to
go straight on, and find that circumstances had to govern, that she
could not shut herself up in sullen majesty, or fling off the daily
duties for some wiser and more patient hands to pick up, and restore to
beauty and harmony.
She had a friend, the best and truest that a young woman could have,
perhaps; a woman so admirably adapted to the training of girls, that it
was no marvel she succeeded. Out of the ruins of her life she had built
up another, wise, sweet, and strong. As Irene began to comprehend what
Mrs. Trenholme had suffered and achieved, for the first time she paid an
honest reverence to the nobility of character. And now she despised her
own petty, shallow thoughts and beliefs. Her lofty despising of the
world and the vain and selfish people therein had been only a kind of
scornful regret for the treasures wrested from her, the glitter of
fashion, the gauds of society. Fred had made a braver stand than she. He
had not sought to poise himself on the easy, graceful rounds of past
promises, and to dream futile weakening dreams, nor shut himself up in
morbid isolation.
After all, how little the great world really cared! It was the few
friends, the small circle, the near influences, that were of importance.
And when she found that here in cultured, delightful Beverly, she was
sought out as an entertaining guest, that she had not lost caste because
the great bubble of fortune had shivered into fragments, that dressing
and shopping and flirting were not the highest of human enjoyments, she
came to a very rational frame of mind, and to a certain extent enjoyed
her life. But nature had not made her a teacher of children, and never
does such women, until, informed by that highest of all love, they teach
their own.
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