Household words, No. 3, April 13, 1850 — John Shaqi
Household words, No. 3, April 13, 1850
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Household words, No. 3, April 13, 1850
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But Mrs. Leigh did not answer. So near to the ascertaining if it were
her lost child or no, she could not be arrested, but pressed onwards
with trembling steps and a beating, fluttering heart. She entered the
bed-room, dark and still. She took no heed of the little corpse, over
which Susan paused, but she went straight to the bed, and withdrawing
the curtain, saw Lizzie,—but not the former Lizzie, bright, gay,
buoyant, and undimmed. This Lizzie was old before her time; her beauty
was gone; deep lines of care, and alas! of want (or thus the mother
imagined) were printed on the cheek, so round, and fair, and smooth,
when last she gladdened her mother’s eyes. Even in her sleep she bore
the look of woe and despair which was the prevalent expression of her
face by day; even in her sleep she had forgotten how to smile. But all
these marks of the sin and sorrow she had passed through only made her
mother love her the more. She stood looking at her with greedy eyes,
which seemed as though no gazing could satisfy their longing; and at
last she stooped down and kissed the pale, worn hand that lay outside
the bed-clothes. No touch disturbed the sleeper; the mother need not
have laid the hand so gently down upon the counterpane. There was no
sign of life, save only now and then a deep sob-like sigh. Mrs. Leigh
sat down beside the bed, and, still holding back the curtain, looked on
and on, as if she could never be satisfied.
Susan would fain have stayed by her darling one; but she had many calls
upon her time and thoughts, and her will had now, as ever, to be given
up to that of others. All seemed to devolve the burden of their cares on
her. Her father, ill-humoured from his last night’s intemperance, did
not scruple to reproach her with being the cause of little Nanny’s
death; and when, after bearing his upbraiding meekly for some time, she
could no longer restrain herself, but began to cry, he wounded her even
more by his injudicious attempts at comfort: for he said it was as well
the child was dead; it was none of theirs, and why should they be
troubled with it? Susan wrung her hands at this, and came and stood
before her father, and implored him to forbear. Then she had to take all
requisite steps for the coroner’s inquest; she had to arrange for the
dismissal of her school; she had to summon a little neighbour, and send
his willing feet on a message to William Leigh, who, she felt, ought to
be informed of his mother’s whereabouts, and of the whole state of
affairs. She asked her messenger to tell him to come and speak to
her,—that his mother was at her house. She was thankful that her father
sauntered out to have a gossip at the nearest coach-stand, and to relate
as many of the night’s adventures as he knew; for as yet he was in
ignorance of the watcher and the watched, who silently passed away the
hours upstairs.
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