She did not ask that the dead love might ever return again. She had no
desire for that, but she asked to feel kindly towards him, that the
resentful feeling might be removed, that God would show her what to do
and where to go, for she could not stay there now, in his home, whither
he would bring his bride ere many days were gone. She must go away, not
to Spring Bank, not anywhere where he or ’Lina could ever find her. She
would far rather die. But Willie! what would she do with him, her
tender, innocent boy?
“God tell me what to do with Willie?” she sobbed, starting suddenly as
the answer to her prayer seemed to come at once. “Oh can I do that?” she
moaned; “can I leave him here?”
At first her whole soul recoiled from it, but when she remembered Anna,
and how much she loved the child, her feelings began to change. Anna
would love him more when she knew he was poor Lily’s and her own
brother’s. She would be kind to him for his father’s sake, and for the
sake of the girl she had professed to like. Willie should be bequeathed
to Anna. It would break her heart to leave him, were it not already
broken, but it was better so. It would be better in the end. He would
forget her in time, unless sweet Anna told him of her, as perhaps she
might. Dear Anna, how Adah longed to fold her arms about her once and
call her sister, but she must not. It might not be well received, for
Anna had some pride, as her waiting-maid had learned.
“A waiting-maid!” Adah repeated the name, smiling bitterly as she
thought, “A waiting-maid in his own home! Who would have dreamed that I
should ever come to this, when he painted the future so grandly? Be
still, my heart, or I shall hate him yet, and I’m going to forgive him.”
Then there came over her the wild, yearning desire to see his face once
more, to know if he had changed, and why couldn’t she? They supposed her
gone to the office, and she would go there now, taking the depot on the
way. She would go closely veiled, and none would suspect her errand.
Rising mechanically, she donned her cloak and hood, and stealing down
the stairs which led from Anna’s room into the garden, she was soon out
beneath the starry sky, inhaling the cool night air, so grateful to her
heated brain.
* * * * *
Apart in the ladies’ room at Snowdon depot, a veiled figure sat, waiting
apparently for the cars, just as others were. She was the only female
present, and no one had noticed her particularly when she came in, for
the gentlemen walking up and down the room only glanced at her, and then
gave her no further thought. And there she sat, Dr. Richards’ deserted
wife, waiting to look on his face once more ere she fled she knew not
whither. He came at last, Jim’s voice speaking to his horses heralding
his approach. Adah could not see him yet, but she knew just when his
feet struck the platform as he sprang from the carriage, and shivered as
if it were a blow aimed at her heart.
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