The food commenced to take effect. I suffered much from it, and could
not keep it down for any length of time. I had to empty my mouth a
little at every dark corner I came to. I struggled to master this
nausea which threatened to hollow me out anew, clenched my hands, and
tried to fight it down; stamped on the pavement, and gulped down
furiously whatever sought to come up. All in vain. I sprang at last
into a doorway, doubled up, head foremost, blinded with the water which
gushed from my eyes, and vomited once more. I was seized with
bitterness, and wept as I went along the street.... I cursed the cruel
powers, whoever they might be, that persecuted me so, consigned them to
hell's damnation and eternal torments for their petty persecution.
There was but little chivalry in fate, really little enough chivalry;
one was forced to admit that.
I went over to a man staring into a shop-window, and asked him in great
haste what, according to his opinion, should one give a man who had
been starving for a long time. It was a matter of life and death, I
said; he couldn't even keep beef down.
"I have heard say that milk is a good thing--hot milk," answered the
man, astonished. "Who is it, by the way, you are asking for?"
"Thanks, thanks," I say; "that idea of hot milk might not be half a bad
notion;" and I go.
I entered the first café I came to going along, and asked for some
boiled milk. I got the milk, drank it down, hot as it was, swallowed it
greedily, every drop, paid for it, and went out again. I took the road
home.
Now something singular happened. Outside my door, leaning against the
lamp-post, and right under the glare of it, stands a person of whom I
get a glimpse from a long distance--it is the lady dressed in black
again. The same black-clad lady of the other evenings. There could be
no mistake about it; she had turned up at the same spot for the fourth
time. She is standing perfectly motionless. I find this so peculiar
that I involuntarily slacken my pace. At this moment my thoughts are in
good working order, but I am much excited; my nerves are irritated by
my last meal. I pass her by as usual; am almost at the door and on the
point of entering. There I stop. All of a sudden an inspiration seizes
me. Without rendering myself any account of it, I turn round and go
straight up to the lady, look her in the face, and bow.
"Good-evening."
"Good-evening," she answers.
Excuse me, was she looking for anything? I had noticed her before;
could I be of assistance to her in any way? begged pardon, by-the-way,
so earnestly for inquiring.
Yes; she didn't quite know....
No one lived inside that door besides three or four horses and myself;
it was, for that matter, only a stable and a tinker's workshop.... She
was certainly on a wrong track if she was seeking any one there.
At this she turns her head away, and says: "I am not seeking for
anybody. I am only standing here; it was really only a whim. I" ... she
stops.
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